I thought I’d share something I did near the beginning of my 13 month journey because I was aware that there’ve been times in my life when I’ve been smaller and others when I’ve been bigger.
Now, there are different reasons why we can put on weight and, to be perfectly open, I usually love cake! I love candy, I love lots of other things that are going to move the scales in a rather undesirable direction. But I’m also aware that stress, emotions, mood, life events, etc. can also really impact.
So, this is what I did:
- I drew a time line from when I was born to now in my late 40s
- I got highlighter pens to note times of weight gain, weight loss and stability
- I then used this to create another time line but with peaks and troughs which helped illustrate the changes in my weight
- I then thought about what was happening when changes in my weight happened and added notes
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So, I was a 7 lb baby and I didn’t have a problem with my weight as a young child
Primary school, I went through some trauma (all dealt with now ❤ ) and my weight started to go on a little bit as a result.
I started secondary school (aged 12) where I lost some weight and was back in the average range.
My weight started to go on during my secondary years because of some difficulties at home
Bulimia started and the bingeing and purging sent my weight in all directions
In my early 20s, I got married so weight came off – I had a dress to get into!
Months after getting married, I was pregnant so lots of weight gain but I then lost it extremely quickly afterwards… restricting for a while rather unhealthily. Motherhood was a blessing but a bit of a shock at the same time.
My weight was pretty stable during rest of my 20s and for most of my 30s although I was a bit heavier than I wanted to be. Too much socialising!
Late 30s, I developed anorexia due to a significant trauma (all resolved now) and became ill. Started trauma therapy and weight went right up.
I became a carer in my early 40s to one of my children and my weight had remained high until last year. Stress. No binge eating but just found myself turning to snacking.
Last February, the pressure of being a carer started to impact me along with a couple of other things but also Covid presented me with an opportunity to focus on myself. Hearing more and more about Covid and obesity, it spurred me on. But, as I shared on Monday, I’ve now been diagnosed with atypical anorexia due to some pressures.
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So, I found it helpful to do this exercise as it showed that stress and trauma impact me. Now I know this, I can find healthier ways of coping with stress including talking it out with others. Life is full of events and who knows what I may face in the future so I’m determined to stop this yoyoing.
I hope this helps at least one other person out there. Reflecting on our past isn’t always easy but I guess facing up to events, etc. can help free us from this constant cycle of weight changes
So, I’ll be back later this week but, in the meantime, take care
Love Erika xx