When I hit the ‘buy’ button on the UK clothing website New Look last night, there was a tiny part of me saying to myself “Really, Erika? You buying those?” But there was a much louder internal voice going “You go, girl!” You see, I’ve bought a couple of items that I’ve never worn as an adult.
First is a pj set with SHORTS!!!! The last time I wore any shorts was part of my school games kit and, before that, I might have worn them around the age of 8 or 9? You know, I’ve got so much sagging skin at the tops of my thighs (front and back) from the weight loss but I don’t care. I genuinely cannot wait to wear these, even if I don’t step out of my bedroom in them. So, US size 8 / UK size 12 are on their way to me and I’m really excited that I’ll be able to get into them straightaway.
The other thing I’ve bought are these ripped jeans!!! Am I too old in my late 40s to be wearing ripped jeans?! No! If I’m not going to wear them now, when will I?
At the end of the day, the rules, boundaries, etc that I impose on myself about what I ‘should’ wear are very much in my head. I lived in maxi skirts day in, day out until very recently but I could have worn jeans or trousers. I guess I felt that wearing maxi skirts would hide my size from others. Wearing something new for the first time might feel awkward or wrong but there has to be that first time when we step out of our comfort zones and play. Yes, I’m now playing as I discover my new style and I’m not going to always get it right. But I’ve now bought several items that are items I wouldn’t normally wear and, in fact, these jeans are going to go fab with the most gorgeous second hand Jaeger coatigan I won on EBay. Perhaps one day, I might put a few photos on here of me wearing these clothes…. well, not the pjs! I’m not that brave!!!!
Hope you all have a lovely weekend and I’ll be back on Monday with my next weigh-in