I’ve been away a while but I’m back!

Hey guys

Gosh, it’s been 6 weeks since I’ve blogged. I’m so sorry that I suddenly disappeared. I guess I just needed a bit of a break and I feel better for it but I’ve also had technical issues logging on through my laptop. So I need to resolve those whilst temporarily using the app on my phone.

Well, a lot has happened in 6 weeks. With my BMI starting at 50 (and 329lbs) in February 2020, it’s now 20.7 (137lbs) and that means I’ve lost almost 60% of my original body weight. I’m wearing mainly US size 6 / U.K. size 10 with some clothes US size 4 / U.K. size 8. I have to say that I’m still struggling to eat enough and I guess what lies at the heart of this is a fear of putting on all the weight. You see, I guess I’ve succeeded at losing so much and, without trying to sound pretentious, I’ve become pretty good at it. Giving up the atypical anorexia doesn’t have to mean putting on all the weight and my focus should be all about balance. That’s such a key word, isn’t it. You see, I’m missing out on a lot socially and I can’t think of anything better than meeting up with friends, enjoying chatting over food, not fearing every single calorie. I will get there but I just feel like I’ve a way to go.

So, I’ll be back blogging to share my inner most thoughts and hoping to inspire others, bring comfort, etc. to anyone who comes my blog. I’m doing a lot of exercise right now and I’ll tell you more next week. In the meantime, hope you have a super weekend

Love Erika xx

What. A. Week!!!

Hey guys

First, apologies in advance if the format of my post today isn’t great but I’m posting from my phone today rather than laptop as I wanted to share today’s post from which I’m buuuuuuzzing! You know, 18 months ago, I couldn’t walk 100m without being of breath. The thought of walking across a car park exhausted me. But I’ve done 3 amazing things over the past 3 days that I could’ve only dreamt of.

First, I flew a helicopter! Yes, now light enough, I took the controls on the most glorious day in the UK with the sun shining as we followed the coastline over the shimmering sea.

Second, I started tap dancing and ballet lessons after a 20 year gap and I was thrown into fast paced routines! In fact, I did 150 minutes of fat burning on Tuesday according to my Fitbit so even the ballet got my heart pumped!

And then third, I went horse riding!!! It’s been about 40 years since I last mounted a horse but here’s Fudge ♥️ It was nerve wracking at first but I ended up trotting in and out of the saddle. I’m off to buy a gillet tonight if I’m gonna look the part!

So, Erika will now ‘play’ every week. Helicopter lessons will be only if I win the lottery but dancing and horse riding are my chance to routinely have fun and celebrate having lost almost 180lbs

Back tomorrow but wishing you all a lovely day

Erika xx

Week 71 weigh-in: revisiting my weight loss bucket list

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I’m a huge fan of bucket lists! I did a ’40 things before I turn 40′ one and I was doing a ’50’ one until Covid came along. I don’t know. I guess I like how it illustrates the willingness to push the comfort zone but also the creativity to come up with inspiring ideas. But with so many things I couldn’t do at 329 lbs back in February 2020, I’m now slowly ticking off various activities from the weight loss bucket list I shared a few weeks ago so I thought it’d be a good opportunity to revisit it, mark those I’ve accomplished and share some additions. But, first, let’s check out this week’s report card:

What’s happened this week?

  • I’ve lost another 1 lb
  • I’ve reached 150 lbs
  • I’m fitting into more size 6 / UK size 10 clothes
  • I’ve worked out nearly everyday
  • I bought a swimming costume!
  • I actually managed to get my legs into standard Wellington boots!!!!! The last time I could do that was when I was a child.

What could Erika improve on?

  • Although I’ve worked out nearly everyday, I think there’s scope to increase the activity levels a bit
  • Be more reliable about blogging! I had every intention of doing a mini photo shoot last week but I’ll definitely be back later this week to do that

Erika’s next target(s):

  • Lose 1 lb to get into the 140s

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Okay, let’s check out what I’ve ticked off my bucket list in the past few months:

  • I completed the Go Ape high trees challenge
  • I went on a Segway adventure
  • I went on a 1.5 km zip wire (the longest in Europe and the fastest in the world)
  • I abseiled off the UK’s tallest sculpture

Things to still complete from the existing weight loss bucket list:

  • Have a helicopter lesson
  • Drive a Ferrari around Silverstone
  • Fly on a plane (having not flown for 10 years due to not being able to fit in the seat)
  • Go on a RIB boat adventure
  • Go horse riding
  • Go Zorbing
  • Go indoor sky diving
  • Possibly consider a real sky dive!

But I’ve also got some other ideas about things to add to the list:

  • Go on a hot air balloon ride
  • Go swimming and not even try to care about the excess skin
  • Go wing walking!!!! Yes, this means standing ON a plane as it flies through the sky!!!
  • Climb the 02 arena in London
  • Climb Sydney Harbour Bridge
  • Climb a mountain
  • Ride the Mail Rail which is a compact driverless 2 foot narrow gauge train that goes under the London streets
  • Go to a trampolining park (mmm, something I should probably do with a friend rather than alone!!)
  • Go snorkelling

If you can think of other ideas, please do let me know! I’m usually pretty good about scouring the net for ideas but there’re bound to be things I haven’t yet come across.

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I’ll definitely be back later this week sharing some photos of what I can now wear and also to share about my adventures tomorrow morning. As ever, please feel free to share your diet / weight-related successes, frustrations or anything else on your mind.

Take care

Love Erika xx

Total recordable weight loss:Current weight:BMI:
179 lbs150 lbs22.5
Original ultimate weight loss goal was to get to 158 lbs

Week 70 weigh-in: I abseiled 80 metres!!!

Hey guys

What a weekend! Let’s get straight onto this week’s report card:

What’s happened this week?

  • I’ve lost another 2 lbs since Friday when I last blogged
  • I’m close to going under 150 lbs
  • My BMI’s now in the 22s
  • My body fat percentage is under 27 %
  • I bought (and I can fit into!!) a US size 6 / UK size 10 jumper
  • I’m jogging again 🙂 in addition to my daily dance aerobics
  • I ticked off another challenge from my weight loss bucket list (more about that in a mo)

What could Erika improve on?

  • Nothing…. I feel like it’s been a good week

Erika’s next target(s):

  • Lose 2 lbs to get into the 140 lbs

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Oh… my….goodness!!!! I had the most amazing time on Saturday when I finally got to tick off another challenge from my weight loss bucket list (click HERE to check out what else is on there). I abseiled 80 metres off the UK’s tallest sculpture which is the ArcelorMittal Orbit situated in the Olympic park in London. It looks like some spirally child’s toy, stretching out into the sky wrapped round by a slide for those brave enough to venture down it. But abseiling has a 19 stone weight limit (266 lbs) so to be able to do this was a real milestone, a real ‘yes, I’ve worked for this‘ achievement. Once my feet left the platform, I descended pretty quickly whilst taking in the views over London. If you find yourself anywhere near there, well worth booking.

The ArcelorMittal Orbit
If you Zoom in, you’ll see two people abseiling there on the left!
The slide? NO!!!! Abseiling felt far safer for me!

And I’m ticking off yet another challenge next week though this one feels a bit more scary….

As ever, please feel free to share your diet / weight-related successes, frustrations or anything else on your mind. I’ll be back later in the week with a bit of a photo shoot!

Take care

Love Erika xx

Total recordable weight loss:Current weight:BMI:
178 lbs151 lbs22.8
Original ultimate weight loss goal was to get to 158 lbs

Week 69 weigh-in: These scale numbers are NEW!

Hey guys

First, I’m soooo sorry. This weigh-in comes a whopping 4 days past my usual Monday weigh-ins as I had something that I got caught up with but, hey, better late than never! I’m just bursting to crack on with this week’s report card so let’s take a look:

What’s happened this week?

  • I’m now under 11 stone
  • I’ve lost more than 12.5 stone in all
  • My weight’s in the low 150 lbs having started at 329
  • My weight, in terms of kilograms, is now in the 60s
  • My BMI’s very close to going under 23
  • My body fat percentage is very close to going under 27 %
  • I’ve seen numbers on the scales today that I cannot recall EVER seeing!
  • I’m wearing smaller jeans despite the excess skin (US size 8, UK size 12)
  • I’m drinking so much more fluid than before
  • I’m working out daily but in a fun way
  • I’m eating a wider variety of food than in previous few months

What could Erika improve on?

  • I’m aware that I’ve already gone past my ultimate weight loss goal and I need to not keep thinking “a bit more, a bit more” with the atypical anorexic voice…

Erika’s next target(s):

  • ….. but saying that, I’d just like to get into the 140 lbs so that leaves 4 lbs to go…. after which I think that’s my settling point to then maintain

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So, I was exactly 7 lbs when I was born but the lightest I can ever recall seeing on the scales is 11 stone 2 (i.e. 156 lbs) when I was 18 and I never thought I’d ever see 10 stone-anything crop up on my scales…. but I have today! Having now lost 176 lbs in all, I can’t tell you how more easily my body moves. Yes, I have significant excess skin, yes it’s uncomfortable when I sit on a hard surface because my body is lacking definition but I feel free. I’ve started doing dance aerobics each day and that puts a huge smile on my face! Honestly, putting on my favourite music tracks and just moving is really making a difference to the scales again. When I started out on this journey 18 months ago, I dared to visualise how things would be if I were lighter and smaller but my reality right now is so much better than anything I could picture.

This weekend, I’m finally ticking off another experience from my weight loss bucket list after it being postponed before but I’ll tell you more on Monday. And I guess this links to what I’ve just said above about feeling free. I had felt so trapped at the beginning of 2020, very aware how my weight and size were stopping me from doing things, not only in terms of confidence but there were things I couldn’t physically do. And I’m now in a place where I have more freedom about what to wear, about doing these experiences that come with a weight limit, etc. If you’re feeling stuck where you are with weight loss, please know that I ‘get it’. I’ve been there. I’ve been in that place thinking that things weren’t going to change. But it really can change by starting with tiny goals and just daring to visualise how things can be. And if dancing around the house to cheesy 1980s pop gets you moving more, well, why not! Let’s crank up the volume and dance like no one’s watching!

As ever, please feel free to share your diet / weight-related successes, frustrations or anything else on your mind. Have a good weekend, everyone

Take care

Love Erika xx

Total recordable weight loss:Current weight:BMI:
176 lbs153 lbs23.1
Original ultimate weight loss goal was to get to 158 lbs

Week 68 weigh-in: I DID IT!!!!

Hello guys

Oh….my…..goodness!!!!! I started this journey almost 18 months ago at a weight of 329 lbs and my BMI at 50. My goal? To lose 150 lbs in addition to the 21 lbs I’d already lost. The thought of getting out of the obese or overweight categories seemed like a pipe dream but I knew that I had to just focus on each tiny goal at a time and not see it as a diet. As time went on, I dared to wonder if I could get down to my 1996 wedding weight of 170 lbs before our silver anniversary later this month with the aim to lose the rest by the end of 2021. But I passed this milestone early and therefore I wondered if I really could reach that ultimate goal of 158 before the anniversary. Well, I’ve done it! Today, I’ve hit 157 lbs which takes me more securely into the healthy range with my BMI now 23.6…. and that’s including significant excess skin. In fact, I cannot recall EVER EVER EVER being lower than 156 so I do plan to lose another 2 lbs to see 155 magically appear!

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From 329 to 157 lbs!!

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310305300295
290285280275
270265260255
250245240235
230225220215
210205200195
190185180175
170165160158

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BMI from 50 to under 25 (but actually now under 24!)

5049.54948.5
4847.54746.5
4645.54544.5
4443.54342.5
4241.54140.5
4039.53938.5
3837.53736.5
3635.53534.5
3433.53332.5
3231.53130.5
3029.52928.5
2827.52726.5
2625.525<25

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No longer being super obese (BMI 50+)
No longer being morbidly obese (BMI 40-49.9)
No longer being in the upper obese range (BMI 35-39.9)
No longer being obese (BMI 30-34.9)
No longer being overweight (BMI 25-29.9) because I’m a HEALTHY WEIGHT! (BMI 19-24)

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However, I’m still going to blog at least once a week for two reasons. First, as those who’ve been following my blog will know, I’m currently in treatment for atypical anorexia and I hope that being open about this struggle will help at least one person out there. Second, the next stage is about maintenance and that’s why I set myself the target of getting to 158 lbs. This is 7 lbs into the healthy range and I don’t expect to remain this exact weight. However, by keeping an eye on my weight and giving myself a 7 lb buffer, I can allow my weight to slightly fluctuate (which is normal!!) but have a point at which I’d want to take action again if I go into the overweight category. I’m hoping this is a healthy approach to maintenance.

I’ll be back later this week to talk through things non-scale related. You see, when I started out on this journey, I used visualisation to imagine how things could be if I was anywhere near my weight loss goal in terms of how I’d feel. So, I’ll be back to share how life has totally changed, not just the scales, and I’ll also tell you about a weekly class I’ve just signed up to start next month which will keep me fit. As ever, please feel free to share your own weight loss journey, your achievements, your frustrations, whatever’s on your mind.

Take care

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight lossStill to lose:Current weight:BMI:
172 lbs 0 lb157 lbs23.6
Including 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

Week 67 weigh-in: here’s where I’m at…

Hello guys

So, I’m back to my weekly weigh-ins after me and the scales were becoming inseparable! For anyone seeing my blog for the first time, hello! Whilst I’ve now lost 170 lbs altogether, I’ve currently getting support from a specialist eating disorder dietitian with upping my calorie intake as I’ve fallen back into atypical anorexia. Part of me is pleased that I’ve lost more weight and my body shape is really changing (although I’m also carrying a lot of excess skin). Part of me is hearing my dietitian’s voice who is amazing but gives me a good talking to with a glint in her eye! She’s very keen that I maintain and that the focus is now on eating well rather than obsessing about the calories. But I’ll tell you a bit more about that later in the week.

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I’ve lots of positives to share:

  • I’m eating more calories (but more about that Thursday or Friday)
  • I’m eating a wider variety of food
  • I’m discovering my sense of style with a very different body shape
  • I’m discovering that I’m an adrenalin junkie! Click here to read about going on the world’s fastest zip wire last weekend. I was also going to do something yesterday but it was cancelled due to high winds but I’ve rebooked for the end of August
  • I’ve booked an optician’s appointment for this Wednesday which is the first time for years – I used to avoid it as I wasn’t sure I could fit in the chair and, for the last appointment, I asked for a home visit. But, on a mission to overhaul my appearance, I’m looking to update my glasses and / or return to wearing contact lens
  • I’m going to colour my hair this week – deciding on dark red or very darkest brunette
  • I’m heading out shortly to buy something to help my nails grow. They’re shockingly short – just a bad habit rather than nerves but it’s something I tend to be ashamed of. So, yes, another part of ‘Project Me’ to focus on making the most of what I’ve got.

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And a few things on my mind / that I’m working on:

  • I had therapy today and there was lots of discussion about finding a new hobby. I’m very much someone who needs space… but I need to connect with others more too. Again, I’ll talk this through another day but I guess I’m feeling a little bit lost in this ‘still-worried-about-Covid-new me-new body-who am I‘ world…
  • I think I have a small umbilical hernia after my digestive system has ground to a halt – again something that the dietitian is helping with. But the thought of seeing a doctor and prodding me scares me a bit – body confidence and all that.
  • Us Brits are known for having bad teeth…. and I am one of them! People have commented that they think of me as being really smiley (which I am!) but I’m aware that I need to look after my teeth better so I’m going to make an appointment with a dentist once I’ve plucked up the courage
  • There’s going to be a wider family get-together at the end of August and I’m really worried. I haven’t eaten in front of anyone but my immediate family for the past 18 months and I’m dreading the whole food thing. Yes, I’m eating more than I was but I know that I have a way to go and I don’t want to rouse suspicion that I have an eating disorder. But the get together isn’t today – so let’s put that one aside

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I’ll be back later this week to update you about the latest food plan from my dietitian. She’s really pleased that I’m getting there but goodness she’s relentless! She said today that she needs to keep pushing up the calories so that I’m well enough to do these adrenalin-fuelled adventures and look after this body of mine…. and I hear her. But it’s definitely tricky getting out of the 18 month long diet mindset I’ve rather enjoyed! But I’m work in progress… perhaps we all are in our own way…?

Take care

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight lossStill to lose:Current weight:BMI:
170 lbs 1 lb159 lbs23.9
Including 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

After extreme weight loss, excess skin photos and a plan!

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Well, after talking last week about the various ways that I can deal with excess skin, I’ve been thinking SO much about where to go from here. Whilst there’s a place near to me that offers skin tightening through radio frequency and I’ve been on the verge of arranging a consultation there, I’ve come to a conclusion having looked at the before and after photos on the website. They really don’t appear to show a massive difference, even though the ‘before’ photos seem to be of people with less excess skin than me.

Before I share my plan, here’re some photos of just some of my excess skin….. this feels a bit scary but, hey, this is me after losing more than half my body weight!

letting it hang

Literally holding it all in… well, as much as possible with one hand!
I could feel low about this…..
… but this shows me how far I’ve come

Realistically, I think surgery would be the way forward to get as close to a dream body and whilst we could afford it, I guess I don’t want it badly enough to brave going under the knife! I’m lucky in that it doesn’t really cause me too many physical problems… certainly nothing I can’t deal with.

So, I’ve decided that my plan going forwards is going to consist of two things. First, weights! Yes, I’m going to lift weights to minimise my bingo wings and perhaps get some definition in my body. I’ll start with weights at home but might find a personal trainer too. Second, I’m going to wear clothes creatively. I shared this photo recently revealing the skin on my arms but also the corrugated-card effect on my legs. Whilst I was a bit proud that I could share this photo, I also had an overwhelming feeling that I’d need to live in jeans and maxi dresses……

…but I’ve bought a tea dress and, with dark tights and boots, it’s really given me a lift that I could perhaps get creative with clothes. Yes, I guess I’m still covering up but in a way that wearing something like a tea dress is actually liberating. So far, as you can probably guess from some recent posts, I’ve worn it only in my bedroom so my family hasn’t seen this but I’m going to set myself a challenge to wear this in front of my family by the end of next weekend… before aiming to wear it out of the house…. possibly?? At least in the dark first!!!

I’ve suspected for some time that I may have lipoedema or something similar as my legs became large when I hit puberty. My mum delightfully referred to them as ‘tree trunk’ legs….. mmmmm!! And I guess it’s no wonder why I feel conscious about them. It’s been interesting to see if my lower legs have reduced in size as I’ve lost weight but they still feel disproportionate….. but dark tights and a smile on my face will hopefully not lead to people glancing twice!

I’ll be back on Monday with my latest weigh-in after a VERY exciting day planned for this Sunday when I tick off something else from my weight loss bucket list.

Have a good weekend everyone

love Erika xx

Week 66: I ‘flew’ on the world’s fastest zip wire!

Hey folks

So, first of all, no weigh in this week after all as I was away yesterday morning and I don’t know….. Monday morning has always been the time when I’ve taken the figure on the scales as my official figure. But I will update you next week.

However, why was I not here dutifully standing on the scales? Because I went away this weekend and had a blast! I spent a couple of days in beautiful Wales and, with it being my first trip away in 18 months due to Covid, I can’t tell you how much fitter I felt now that I’m more than 160 lbs down. I was climbing over walls, strolling along mountain streams and almost running up stairs! But I also got to tick off something on my weight loss bucket list. I went on the world’s fastest zip wire which, at over 1.5 km, is also Europe’s longest. This is something that I could haven’t done 18 months ago due to being over the weight limit.

I did have a moment of absolute panic. I didn’t realise that I had jumped onto some scales, revealing my weight to a young guy behind the counter. As part of the check in process, I was asked to stand on an X which I did without questioning, assuming it was some type of ID thing. It wasn’t until I got off that I realised what I’d done. But as I say, it was a moment of absolute panic. That moment came to an end and it would have been merely a figure to him before moving onto the next. The other moment that I found hard was when I was kitted up and had staff working there tugging at the harness that I’d been strapped into. Some parts of me are bony but I also have an incredible amount of excess skin which I’m struggling with and I felt horrible but I could put those thoughts aside (until I had therapy later in the day) and get on to have one of the most thrilling, exhilarating, liberating experiences of my life.

The dreaded scales… but I survived!

There are two zip lines at Zip World in north Wales (about a 20 minute drive from Bangor) and, on both, you lie horizontally, flying through the air whilst attached to the overhead cable. Flying over the quarry and the turquoise water below was thrilling enough on the first one and then, after a 15 minute ascent to the second launch station, it was a mere 55 second drop but wow wow wow!!!!!!! I LOVED it!!!! It’s actually really exciting to be discovering that I’m someone who loves outdoor pursuits and who knows what more I’ll be doing as I start to accept and perhaps love me and my body.

About to launch from the lower of the two zip lines
After the first zip line, it’s a 15 minute ascent by army truck to the top launch station
Time to launch!
See ya!

Well, I know what’s next. I’m abseiling from the UK’s highest sculpture next Sunday, I’ve a helicopter lesson in September, I’m horse riding in September (plus hopefully some other activities I’m looking into for my trip to Cornwall) and then I’m driving a Ferrari in October. These are all things that I was previously too heavy or large to do at 329 lbs. If you’re on a weight loss journey and you find yourself feeling stuck, my advice is to imagine what you’d like to be able to do at your target weight – whether it’s imagining yourself wearing size ‘X’ or doing some incredible activity. If we can visualise our future success, perhaps it makes it more likely we’ll get there and not feel stuck where we are at the moment.

I’ll be back later this week as I’m making the call tomorrow to a place about treatment for excess skin. I might even share a photo of me wearing a tea dress – something I’ve wanted to wear for a while ❤ and then next Monday I’ll be sharing my new weight and chatting through all things abseiling-related!

Love Erika xx

P.S. Just throwing in a couple of photos of my walks around Snowdonia

The lonely Tree of Llanberis – yes, that really is what it’s known as!
Blessed with beautiful weather on my 24 hour trip in Wales

Excess skin from weight loss. What are my options?

Hey folks

Losing weight is amazing. Goodness, the high you can get from seeing the number on the scales go down and the feeling of the clothes starting to hang off your body… they’re just priceless. I’ll be doing a weight update for you on Monday as it’s been a while since I’ve weighed myself but the last time I did jump on the scales showed me that I’d lost more than 160 lbs.

But a huge weight loss can come with excess skin, especially bearing in mind that I’m in my late 40s and I’ve spent much of my adult like bigger than I would have liked to be. At the end of the day, I’d prefer to be carrying this excess skin than be carrying the excess weight but I’m lucky that it’s not causing me any health problems because excess skin can cause all manner of difficulties including infections and sores. The only two problems it is causing are a) sitting down on a reasonably hard surface which isn’t very comfortable and b) the psychological impact of not feeling comfortable in my skin – though that can be worked on.

So, what are my options?

a. Creams, lotions and all manner of things to put on my skin

You’ve only got to look at the beauty aisles in pharmacies to see products promising to tighten up your skin. I want to say that no amount of product is going to make a difference for me but perhaps I’ll give something a go… even if it’s for just one part of my body that would make a bit of a difference. But even if it does, I need to look into other options too!

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b. Eat more protein, lift weights and build up muscle mass

So, I’ve read that building up muscle mass can at least help make the body appear more defined and try to flatten some of the corrugated-card-type appearance to my upper legs… and perhaps reduce the effect of my bingo wings. My specialist dietitian said that as we get older, it’s important to eat more protein which is something I’m focusing on right now. This seems doable – perhaps booking a few sessions with a personal trainer first to get me on track.

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c. Non-surgical treatments

There are a few things out there but, goodness, it’s so important to choose someone who’s qualified! I saw a programme recently about how some people offering a variety of cosmetic treatments (like fillers, etc.) may have attended just a weekend course with barely any input about health and safety! But the main thing I’m currently looking into is radio frequency skin tightening as there’s a hospital near me offering this, a hospital with a good reputation, My plan is to contact them next week, book an appointment and take it from there.

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d. Surgery

Now, I am a realist and I feel that a body lift is the only way to get my body 100% toned. But from what I’ve read, it would involve at least two separate surgeries, each taking 4-6 weeks of recovery time. Whilst that sounds like a long time, I guess it’s a mere fraction of time bearing in mind how I could then have my toned body for some time to come. But I’m scared! The thought of going under the knife in any circumstance just terrifies me so whilst I could look at this, nah! I’d prefer to do one of the above options.

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I’ll be back on Monday to update you about my weight but also tell you about the most amazing adventure I’m about to go on this weekend. I’m ticking off another thing from my weight loss bucket list and this is a BIG one!!!

Have a great weekend, everyone

Love Erika xx