Yes, my weight is finally in the ‘healthy’ range with my weight down from 329 lbs to 167 lbs since February 2020 and I’m now just 1 lb away from losing more than half my body weight. That actually feels quite significant to me now that I write that and I never thought I’d get here. It seemed like a very long way off when I started this journey but it’s always been about focusing on the next tiny goal. However, being really open with you, it’s such a really mixed, surreal feeling.
On the one hand, yay!!!!!!! I’m SO excited! The last time my weight was in the healthy range was about 30 years ago. I’m wearing the clothes that I want to wear, I’m no longer easily getting out of breath and I’ve far more energy. There are lots of other happy stats like my waist and body fat now being in the recommended range so there’s no denying that I’m completely chuffed to bits.
But on the other hand, I don’t feel that I can truly celebrate this moment which is really disheartening. As others who’ve been following my blog will know, I’ve fallen into the traps of a serious eating disorder. I’ve lots going on at the moment with waiting to hear back from a specialist eating disorder dietitian and from the local eating disorder service.
Now that my BMI is in the healthy range, I guess it’s understandable that I’m desperate to stay here! But I wonder if increasing my calories (even a little bit) will then lead to some weight going on with my body desperately holding onto any extra food in fear of how little food it’s had in recent months. And that scares me. But, at the same time, whilst my BMI is healthy, I need to get my body and brain into a healthy place too and perhaps increasing my calories will lead some fluctuation as my body adapts. I guess what’s important is that I look at the wider picture and as long as I don’t eat more than my body needs, there’s no reason why I shouldn’t be able to stay here in the healthy range in the long term. But, yes, now tackling my eating disorder is really the next goal.
I really hope you all have a great weekend everyone and I’ll be back on Monday to see if that extra pound has come off… and, if it hasn’t, well, is there really any rush? No, not really. Safety first, Erika. Safety first 🙂
Although I do my official weigh-ins on Mondays, today is one of those days to throw the ‘How Erika Blogs‘ rulebook out of the window! I was sitting here on this Sunday drafting my blog but I just had to cave into the demands of the ‘publish’ button as there are many positives to share this week. What I must be mindful of though is to not slam on the brakes and take my eyes off the long term goal. When I finally got out of the ‘morbidly obese’ category last summer, it felt as if I’d completed some ultramarathon and I became too lax once I crossed the finishing line… before talking a huge gulp when realising that, yes, whilst I’d reached a huge milestone, I wasn’t yet at the end of my journey. And in fact, will there be an end? No, not really because even when I do hit ‘goal weight’. maintenance is probably going to be an entirely different animal to get to know and tame. But let’s check out this week’s report card:
What’s Erika done well this week?
I lost 5 lbs
I hit Onederland! Yes, my weight is now under 200 lbs
I’m now in the ‘overweight’ category…. with my BMI having gone from 50 to under 30
I’ve now lost more than 75% of my excess weight
I’ve continued to keep myself hydrated
What could Erika improve on?
Erika’s next target(s):
1lb until I’ve lost 9.5 stone
1 lb until I’m light enough to go horse riding at a local stables… naked!!! I might want to lose a few more pounds so that I can get under the maximum weight that allow for my clothes, boots, etc. 😉
2 lbs until I’m under 14 stone
4 lbs until my BMI is under 29.5
8 lbs until I’m in the 180s and I’ve lost 10 stone
So, there’s been lots to celebrate and I can’t deny that I’ve been buzzing. But actually, I’m also struggling too with weight loss, my body and how I’m feeling about it which I’ll talk about more later in the week. Don’t worry.. it’s not going to be a ‘woe is me‘ post! It shouldn’t be too depressing to read!! But I guess it’s important to acknowledge that going on a journey like this isn’t always a bed of roses and it can bring up all kinds of feelings, some expected, some not. Until then, please feel free to share your own experiences including celebrations or frustrations and any questions you’d like to ask me…
My BMI has gone from the super morbidly obese range (when my BMI was 50) to the lowest obesity category (BMI now 34.9)
I’ve lost 1lb…but more about that in a mo
With it being week 26 of blogging, I’ve now been blogging regularly for 6 months…thank you for joining me ❤
I can see my toes! Yes, I can glance down without tilting forward and see my toes!!!
I completed the London Vitality 10K event on Saturday so that means another medal will soon be on its way. My London Marathon one came the other day and, in the next couple of weeks, I’ll be doing a blog about my fitness medals
What could Erika improve on?
Is it okay to say that I can’t think of anything for this week?! This rarely happens!
Erika’s next target(s):
lose 1 more lb so that I will have achieved a 100 lb weight loss in all
10 lbs until I’m weighing less than 100kg
31 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
33 lbs until I’m no longer obese as I’ll be overweight
So, guys, a HUGE surprise this morning! I thought I’d have to be 229 lbs for my BMI to go under 35 but it turns out that 230 lbs and a few ounces does just the trick. I truly can’t believe that I’m in the lowest obesity range (which goes from 30-34.9) as it’s been about 8 years since I’ve been here. Getting my BMI under 30 (and to go from being obese to overweight) seems like a long way off but it wasn’t that long ago when I was dreaming about getting out of the morbidly obese range and desperate to get my BMI under 40. So, this is where my tiny goals come into it. Just focus on the next step and don’t look too far ahead.
A quick note about this image from my Weight Watchers scales. So, body fat (BF) is way too high although I’m working on that. Body water (BW) is actually low which suggests that I’m dehydrated but I’ve managed to bring it up from being under 43. Bone (bone mass) is actually way too high… not that I’m looking for excuses to put the brakes on this weight loss journey but does this mean I’m officially very heavy boned?!
As soon as I lose my next pound, I’ll be back on here to share this with you but, until then, hope you have a good week