A slightly different-to-usual post for a Monday because I wanted to share something with you that happened on Saturday.
On Friday, I got brave and posted some photos on here with me wearing various clothes that had long been in my ‘mmm, might get into that one day’ pile. I really wasn’t sure about sharing but I was left feeling proud that I’d posted the photos because it was way out of my comfort zone and that’s where change can happen, isn’t it. If we do the same things within our comfort zone, are we really making progress when progress is something we’re ultimately aiming for? But the photos were taken in my bedroom and, goodness, I daren’t show people that I actually have legs!!!!!
But here in the UK, the weather has been beautiful and so I took my progress to the next level on Saturday. First of all, I wore what I wantedto wear rather than what I thought I should wear and that meant stepping out of my bedroom in the outfit below. My hubby and adult children were the first to see and it felt awkward wearing something very different to my usual ‘I must cover myself up’ approach! But they were great and so I knew I needed to push it further. I wore the outfit all day which was perfect for the heat and despite not going out anywhere as such, I wore these clothes when answering the door for a few deliveries we were expecting and to our wheelie bins outside a few times. Just stepping over the threshold of our front door was scary but I did it! Yes, I really did it. Once I have my car back in a couple of days, my next target is to wear the outfit to a shop. I guess this is all about incrementally pushing that comfort zone where one day I might be thinking “Meh…. what comfort zone?”!!
I’ve a clearer idea about coping with and/or addressing my excess skin so I’ll be back later this week to talk you though my thought process and see what I next put in place.
Love Erika xx
Recordable weight loss
Still to lose:
164 lbs (last recordable weight)
Not currently doing weekly weigh-ins as I’m trying to not be a slave to the scales! But recordable weight loss includes 21 lbs lost just prior to blogging
When I hit the ‘buy’ button on the UK clothing website New Look last night, there was a tiny part of me saying to myself “Really, Erika? You buying those?” But there was a much louder internal voice going “You go, girl!” You see, I’ve bought a couple of items that I’ve never worn as an adult.
First is a pj set with SHORTS!!!! The last time I wore any shorts was part of my school games kit and, before that, I might have worn them around the age of 8 or 9? You know, I’ve got so much sagging skin at the tops of my thighs (front and back) from the weight loss but I don’t care. I genuinely cannot wait to wear these, even if I don’t step out of my bedroom in them. So, US size 8 / UK size 12 are on their way to me and I’m really excited that I’ll be able to get into them straightaway.
The other thing I’ve bought are these ripped jeans!!! Am I too old in my late 40s to be wearing ripped jeans?! No! If I’m not going to wear them now, when will I?
At the end of the day, the rules, boundaries, etc that I impose on myself about what I ‘should’ wear are very much in my head. I lived in maxi skirts day in, day out until very recently but I could have worn jeans or trousers. I guess I felt that wearing maxi skirts would hide my size from others. Wearing something new for the first time might feel awkward or wrong but there has to be that first time when we step out of our comfort zones and play. Yes, I’m now playing as I discover my new style and I’m not going to always get it right. But I’ve now bought several items that are items I wouldn’t normally wear and, in fact, these jeans are going to go fab with the most gorgeous second hand Jaeger coatigan I won on EBay. Perhaps one day, I might put a few photos on here of me wearing these clothes…. well, not the pjs! I’m not that brave!!!!
Hope you all have a lovely weekend and I’ll be back on Monday with my next weigh-in