Week 9 weigh-in: 10lbs to go until no longer morbidly obese!

Little goals. Day at a time!

Yes, I’m SO excited that the point of no longer falling into the morbidly obese range is within reach! You see, it can be very easy to focus on those long term goals such as fitting into those skinny jeans or being light enough to wingwalk on a plane but a long weight loss journey is about celebrating the short term goals too. Now that I’m 19 stone 6 (272 lbs), that 20 stone mark feels far enough way to change my mindset as I slowly but surely continue until I’m considered a healthy weight..

So, I’ve lost 3lbs this week through a combination of healthy eating and working out! Yay! I’ve got ‘Week 4, Run 3’ of Couch to 5K tonight. I was tempted to do it last night and not give myself a rest days as advised but rest is important! The body has to repair itself in between runs and I do have to be particularly careful knowing that I’m doing this fitness programme whilst carrying extra weight.

Inches are being lost

You may find sometimes that the scales aren’t budging but you can feel as if some change in your body is happening. When I started changing my eating habits back in February (prior to starting my blog and 2 months before I was brave enough to weigh myself), I measured my bust, waist, belly, hips and left calf. I have no idea why I measured just one calf!! Since then, I’ve added some more measurements as shown in the table below. I have to admit that I’m a bit embarrassed about sharing these stats with you as they’re like my personal secret that I hide under clothing which drapes to the floor but I promised when I started this blog that I’d be very open. So, here goes!

Body part20.02.2007.05.20TodayLoss
Bust52.5″-50.5″– 2″
Waist45″40.5″– 4.5″
Belly (spare tyre!)58″52″– 6″
Hips59″53″– 6″
Left arm16.5″14.5″– 2″
Right arm18″15.75″– 2.25″
Left calf24″22.5– 1.5″
Right calf22.5″22.25″– 0.25

And whilst the numbers are going down (look at the belly and hips stats!!), body mass is definitely being lost elsewhere too like around my shoulders, my thighs, my lower arms, my ankles, etc. ’tis all good. Won’t be long until none of my measurements is over 50″!

Next time

Later on this week, I’m going to tell you about what I’m eating just to give you some insight. I meant to say, please feel free to share my blog if you think it could inspire others. I’m just a regular 40-something year old who’s making changes and really getting there. I don’t have a magic wand but I’ve bags and bags of positivity!

Have a great week everyone and catch up next time.

Love Erika xx

Total recordable weight loss:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
41lbs109 lbs267 lbs40.6

Lockdown and weight…I’ve won!

If you’d told me on New Year’s Day that we’d be under lockdown and asked what that would happen to my weight, I would have told you that it would pile on. With my business on hold, none of the usual volunteering sessions to do and none of my travels happening, I’m sure that the weight would have crept on whilst reaching out for yet another biscuit! Back in January, I knew I was big but, feeling disconnected to my body, I didn’t know how big I truly was.

February

And then something clicked in my mind in February when I knew I had to cut out the snacks and restrict my intake. And so healthy eating was happening and I estimate that I probably lost about 20lbs judging by the inch loss. But for me, diets then stop after 3 weeks. I get bored! I yearn for a toffee-cream Éclair!

Lockdown comes

However, by that 3 week point, we were very much seeing COVID-19 cases increase and then boom. Lockdown! Suddenly, we had to plan our meals. We couldn’t walk into shops as easily. I had so much time on my hands that could have lead to boredom and eating. But in fact hearing about the high percentage of overweight and obese people succumbing to the virus made me see that I could use this time to focus on me. What a precious gift that is! And so I started to blog, I started to create a daily workout, I finally got on the scales without hauling that huge chair with me and my weight is going down! Lockdown 0 – Me 1!

I’m back to work on Tuesday and part of me is a bit concerned about will I be able to maintain this journey? Well, yes! Okay, so my leg is injured AT THE MOMENT and I’m on crutches AT THE MOMENT but I’m still working out and watching everything I eat. So, if I want weight loss badly enough, I will make it work. I have had so many hits on this blog by people in the US (hello!) and I’ve been watching lots of US weight loss programmes like Fit to Fat to Fit and My 3000lb Family. These have been invaluable to watch…as I exercise of course!

A final note

And, yes, Monday is my next weigh-in. A note here for you girls because it’s almost the time of the month and perhaps I’ll gain a few pounds temporarily but I can still be good, still look after me and then see the weight loss afterwards. But bearing in mind that my periods have only just come back due to my weight loss (yes, I was so heavy that they stopped for 10 years), that’s a small price to pay for better health!

Have a great weekend everyone and I’ll be back on Monday

Love Erika xx

When I lose weight, I will……

Mmm, what would you say if you’re on a weight loss journey? What does your weight or size currently stop you from doing? I think that starting to think about these things is helpful as it acts likes a carrot for me. Yes, the weight is coming down and, yes, the body measurements are getting smaller but when there’s still so much weight to lose (132lbs), visualising the ‘new me’ keeps me positive and focused.

So, here’s my list of targets and milestones that I can hopefully tick off on this ‘new me’ journey:

  • be able to put my feet together when I stand up (currently there’s a 1.5″ gap due to my large legs)
  • get into a dress that I wore on a cruise 2 years ago (UK size 22) – I’m almost there
  • wear ankle boots that don’t cut into my large calves
  • be able to wear 3/4 trousers once my legs are slimmer
  • be able to kneel down without experiencing excruciating pain in my legs
  • wear Wellington boots (haven’t worn for years)
  • be able to run 5K, first alone but then at a park run
  • be able to run a half marathon of 13.1 miles
  • get back into my 10 year old jeans (UK size 14)
  • not even think about whether I can comfortably fit in a chair with arms including at the cinema and on a plane
  • be able to resume smear tests (pap tests) without utter embarrassment (I currently privately pay for a test I administer myself at home and then send off)
  • ditch the maxi skirts that I wear every single day!
  • ride a horse (local riding school quotes 196lb maximum weight)
  • have a helicopter flying lesson (231lb maximum weight)
  • be able to go on a hot air balloon (roughly 252lb maximum weight)
  • go down Zip Wire Velocity 2 in North Wales which is over 1,500 metres long and involves going over 100 miles an hour (264lb maximum weight).

Wow! Reading through this list (which obviously isn’t in order of likelihood of being achieved), there really are some seriously big goals but smaller ones too. No doubt, this list will get added to over time and I can celebrate the small and large successes with you!

I’d love to hear about your goals and aspirations… or what you finally did after losing weight

Love Erika xx

Week 3 weigh-in: I was brave!

Well, it’s Monday and that means it’s time to share with you the results of standing on the scales this morning: I’ve lost 5lbs this week! Yay! Now that I’m 290lbs, I’m just 3lbs away from my previously known heaviest weight of 287lbs and I guess I feel as if I’m heading back into familiar territory, if that makes sense. There’s something wonderfully comforting about that.

But my even bigger news to tell you is that I got on the scales ON MY OWN! As you know, I’ve been hauling a chair onto the scales with me as I’d been too scared to see my ‘real weight’ and, suspecting the chair was about 28lbs, it gave me a rough idea of how much I actually weighed. However, on Saturday night, I was almost tying myself in knots researching the chair online, desperate to find a website that would give me its exact weight. I mean, what if the chair weighed 21lbs and therefore I was 7lbs heavier than I thought I was? It was like I couldn’t switch off and so, recognising that I needed to stop the obsessive thoughts, I knew I had to be brave, get on the scales alone and ‘just’ deal with it. So, I got on to find that the chair really is 28lbs! Yes, it was a relief that I’d estimated the chair correctly but you know, it was more of a relief that I could now deal with my new lifestyle in a less complicated way.

Hopefully I can lose 3lbs soon and reach that first big goal but I’ve also been thinking about the activities I’d love to do that have a weight limit, such as going on a zip wire or having a helicopter flying lesson. Just knowing that I CAN do these activities will be amazing but more about that next time!

Have a good week, everyone

Love Erika xx

Total weight lost:Still to lose:Current weight: BMI:
33 lbs117 lbs275 lbs41.8

Week 2 weigh-in: Two milestones met already

With my second weigh-in this morning, I really hoped that I’d lose a good amount. Of course, it’s important to lose weight at a sensible rate but I’ve also read that the more you have to lose in the first place, the quicker it can come off when starting the new lifestyle journey…..and the scales did not disappoint! 6lbs lost! I’m certain that this figure will slow down to perhaps 1 or 2 lbs a week but I hope it’s okay to say that, in the meantime, I’m really chuffed. However, as well as the weight loss, it also means that I’ve now reached two milestones. First, it means that I’m now under 300 lbs. Part of me is SO happy yet another part is thinking how on earth did I get to 300lbs over the past few years. I do feel ashamed but dwelling on it isn’t going to help. But the main thing is that I’m now making myself home in the 200 club which I hope will be a welcoming place to be as I pass by before moving onto the 100 club at some point. The other milestone is that my BMI is now 44.9 so I’ve got under the 45 mark

The other thing I did this morning was to take my official ‘before’ photos from the front and side. They’re not great viewing and they won’t show my weight loss so far (including some weight loss before I was brave to weigh myself a fortnight ago) but perhaps I can be brave and share these with you some time. I’m a bit nervous about that to be honest. Perhaps it’s about being judged and revealing my body when I go to lengths to hide it usually so I hope you’ll be kind! Hopefully when I get back into those skinny jeans and leather knee high boots that I last wore in 2012, I can look back at the photos to see how far I came.

I’m still doing my 40 minutes of walking each day around my living room and I’ve started to increase the number of repetitions when doing my upper body exercises. You know, it was only a few months ago when I remember my back hurting from just standing up to do the washing up so my fitness is getting there. How I’d love to run a 5K one day! Never say never! Long term goals are just as important as the short term ones.

Finally, I’ve decided that I will start to weigh myself without the huge chair that I hold above my head as I get onto the scales! From what I’ve read online, I think the chair weighs 28lbs so, once the scales suggest that me and me alone may actually be under 20 stone, perhaps that’s the time to ditch the chair and get on ‘naked’!!!

If you’re on your own journey, please feel free to share your successes and challenges here

Stay safe everyone

Love Erika xx

Total weight lost:Still to lose:Current weight including the chair!
13 lbs137 lbs323 lbs

Adele’s weight loss – inspirational!

Hey

When I read a news article today about Adele thanking key workers here in the UK, I had to look twice! Her 7 stone weight loss makes her look unrecognisable and I had to read it twice to make sure that I was thinking of the same singer! But, as somebody with a LOT of weight to lose, looking at people’s before and after photos really inspires me to see how things could be if I stick to this new lifestyle of being kind to myself, sticking to 3 meals a day and some exercises right here in my living room. I’m unlikely to be someone who’s going to be eating 5 portions of fruit and veg. I’m really not very adventurous when it comes to trying new food but if I at least aim for 2 portions a day, that’s a massive improvement from before. And this is how I’m approaching this journey. Small, realistic changes that I can sustain going forward.

Whilst Monday morning is my weekly day to weigh in, I’m measuring myself every 6 weeks (bust, waist, belly, hips and calf) and tomorrow is my next measuring day. But it’s a bit nerve-wracking. What if I haven’t lose any inches? What if the feeling of my body getting a tiny bit smaller is completely in my head? Aagghh!! It’s the same before jumping on the scales and desperately hoping that the numbers have shifted. Even, if it’s a 1/4 of an inch lost anywhere compared to 6 weeks ago, at least it’s heading in the right direction!

In my next post, I’ll share with you what’s lead my new positive approach to me looking after me…. finally!

If you’re on a weight loss journey, do you take measurements? I’d love to know if you do and whether you find it helpful. Feel free to celebrate your successes here!

Love Erika xx

I need to lose 150lbs

The first post on a new blog is rather scary! There’s so much I want to tell you but we’ve got lots of time to get to know each other, haven’t we! I mean, losing 150lbs (about 10 stone) isn’t going to be a goal that I can accomplish in the next month so I’m going to be blogging for quite some time.

First, I need to confess something – I THINK it’s 150lbs I need to lose. I was too scared to get on the scales on my own so I lifted a very large angel high-backed chair with me so that I could glance at the scales and think “Well, at least I’m not X amount”. I’d love to know if I’m only one who gets on scales with furniture, pets or children! I’ve been Googling the weight of the chair and it’s coming up 28lbs (over 12.5 kg) so I think I have an idea about my true weight but I need to shift some more weight more before I get on ‘naked’, without anything clinging to me or held above my head!

I must tell you that I have a history of bulimia and anorexia and so it’s vitally important that I do this in a really healthy way, a more sustainable way than in the past. 9 years ago, I was very ill with anorexia and put my heart at risk. I was obsessing about minimal calories over 6 months and was almost sectioned under the UK Mental Health Act due its physical toll. But more on that another time.

The last thing to share right now is that I started this journey on 14 February (absolutely no link to being Valentine’s Day). I wanted to make sure that I was beginning this journey healthily before blogging and I wanted to see if I could sustain healthy eating for more than 3 weeks (usually the point in a diet when I reach for the candy and biscuits!). But, with 2.5 months gone, I think I’m now ready do share my 150lbs weight loss with you which will be on top of however much weight I’ve already lost.

And I promise to be open, very open with you. I’ll tell you about some exercise I’m starting and what I’m eating. And, in my next blog, I’ll tell you what the scales said!

Love Erika xx