I’ve been away a while but I’m back!

Hey guys

Gosh, it’s been 6 weeks since I’ve blogged. I’m so sorry that I suddenly disappeared. I guess I just needed a bit of a break and I feel better for it but I’ve also had technical issues logging on through my laptop. So I need to resolve those whilst temporarily using the app on my phone.

Well, a lot has happened in 6 weeks. With my BMI starting at 50 (and 329lbs) in February 2020, it’s now 20.7 (137lbs) and that means I’ve lost almost 60% of my original body weight. I’m wearing mainly US size 6 / U.K. size 10 with some clothes US size 4 / U.K. size 8. I have to say that I’m still struggling to eat enough and I guess what lies at the heart of this is a fear of putting on all the weight. You see, I guess I’ve succeeded at losing so much and, without trying to sound pretentious, I’ve become pretty good at it. Giving up the atypical anorexia doesn’t have to mean putting on all the weight and my focus should be all about balance. That’s such a key word, isn’t it. You see, I’m missing out on a lot socially and I can’t think of anything better than meeting up with friends, enjoying chatting over food, not fearing every single calorie. I will get there but I just feel like I’ve a way to go.

So, I’ll be back blogging to share my inner most thoughts and hoping to inspire others, bring comfort, etc. to anyone who comes my blog. I’m doing a lot of exercise right now and I’ll tell you more next week. In the meantime, hope you have a super weekend

Love Erika xx

What. A. Week!!!

Hey guys

First, apologies in advance if the format of my post today isn’t great but I’m posting from my phone today rather than laptop as I wanted to share today’s post from which I’m buuuuuuzzing! You know, 18 months ago, I couldn’t walk 100m without being of breath. The thought of walking across a car park exhausted me. But I’ve done 3 amazing things over the past 3 days that I could’ve only dreamt of.

First, I flew a helicopter! Yes, now light enough, I took the controls on the most glorious day in the UK with the sun shining as we followed the coastline over the shimmering sea.

Second, I started tap dancing and ballet lessons after a 20 year gap and I was thrown into fast paced routines! In fact, I did 150 minutes of fat burning on Tuesday according to my Fitbit so even the ballet got my heart pumped!

And then third, I went horse riding!!! It’s been about 40 years since I last mounted a horse but here’s Fudge ♥️ It was nerve wracking at first but I ended up trotting in and out of the saddle. I’m off to buy a gillet tonight if I’m gonna look the part!

So, Erika will now ‘play’ every week. Helicopter lessons will be only if I win the lottery but dancing and horse riding are my chance to routinely have fun and celebrate having lost almost 180lbs

Back tomorrow but wishing you all a lovely day

Erika xx

Week 71 weigh-in: revisiting my weight loss bucket list

Hey guys

I’m a huge fan of bucket lists! I did a ’40 things before I turn 40′ one and I was doing a ’50’ one until Covid came along. I don’t know. I guess I like how it illustrates the willingness to push the comfort zone but also the creativity to come up with inspiring ideas. But with so many things I couldn’t do at 329 lbs back in February 2020, I’m now slowly ticking off various activities from the weight loss bucket list I shared a few weeks ago so I thought it’d be a good opportunity to revisit it, mark those I’ve accomplished and share some additions. But, first, let’s check out this week’s report card:

What’s happened this week?

  • I’ve lost another 1 lb
  • I’ve reached 150 lbs
  • I’m fitting into more size 6 / UK size 10 clothes
  • I’ve worked out nearly everyday
  • I bought a swimming costume!
  • I actually managed to get my legs into standard Wellington boots!!!!! The last time I could do that was when I was a child.

What could Erika improve on?

  • Although I’ve worked out nearly everyday, I think there’s scope to increase the activity levels a bit
  • Be more reliable about blogging! I had every intention of doing a mini photo shoot last week but I’ll definitely be back later this week to do that

Erika’s next target(s):

  • Lose 1 lb to get into the 140s

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Okay, let’s check out what I’ve ticked off my bucket list in the past few months:

  • I completed the Go Ape high trees challenge
  • I went on a Segway adventure
  • I went on a 1.5 km zip wire (the longest in Europe and the fastest in the world)
  • I abseiled off the UK’s tallest sculpture

Things to still complete from the existing weight loss bucket list:

  • Have a helicopter lesson
  • Drive a Ferrari around Silverstone
  • Fly on a plane (having not flown for 10 years due to not being able to fit in the seat)
  • Go on a RIB boat adventure
  • Go horse riding
  • Go Zorbing
  • Go indoor sky diving
  • Possibly consider a real sky dive!

But I’ve also got some other ideas about things to add to the list:

  • Go on a hot air balloon ride
  • Go swimming and not even try to care about the excess skin
  • Go wing walking!!!! Yes, this means standing ON a plane as it flies through the sky!!!
  • Climb the 02 arena in London
  • Climb Sydney Harbour Bridge
  • Climb a mountain
  • Ride the Mail Rail which is a compact driverless 2 foot narrow gauge train that goes under the London streets
  • Go to a trampolining park (mmm, something I should probably do with a friend rather than alone!!)
  • Go snorkelling

If you can think of other ideas, please do let me know! I’m usually pretty good about scouring the net for ideas but there’re bound to be things I haven’t yet come across.

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I’ll definitely be back later this week sharing some photos of what I can now wear and also to share about my adventures tomorrow morning. As ever, please feel free to share your diet / weight-related successes, frustrations or anything else on your mind.

Take care

Love Erika xx

Total recordable weight loss:Current weight:BMI:
179 lbs150 lbs22.5
Original ultimate weight loss goal was to get to 158 lbs

Week 70 weigh-in: I abseiled 80 metres!!!

Hey guys

What a weekend! Let’s get straight onto this week’s report card:

What’s happened this week?

  • I’ve lost another 2 lbs since Friday when I last blogged
  • I’m close to going under 150 lbs
  • My BMI’s now in the 22s
  • My body fat percentage is under 27 %
  • I bought (and I can fit into!!) a US size 6 / UK size 10 jumper
  • I’m jogging again 🙂 in addition to my daily dance aerobics
  • I ticked off another challenge from my weight loss bucket list (more about that in a mo)

What could Erika improve on?

  • Nothing…. I feel like it’s been a good week

Erika’s next target(s):

  • Lose 2 lbs to get into the 140 lbs

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Oh… my….goodness!!!! I had the most amazing time on Saturday when I finally got to tick off another challenge from my weight loss bucket list (click HERE to check out what else is on there). I abseiled 80 metres off the UK’s tallest sculpture which is the ArcelorMittal Orbit situated in the Olympic park in London. It looks like some spirally child’s toy, stretching out into the sky wrapped round by a slide for those brave enough to venture down it. But abseiling has a 19 stone weight limit (266 lbs) so to be able to do this was a real milestone, a real ‘yes, I’ve worked for this‘ achievement. Once my feet left the platform, I descended pretty quickly whilst taking in the views over London. If you find yourself anywhere near there, well worth booking.

The ArcelorMittal Orbit
If you Zoom in, you’ll see two people abseiling there on the left!
The slide? NO!!!! Abseiling felt far safer for me!

And I’m ticking off yet another challenge next week though this one feels a bit more scary….

As ever, please feel free to share your diet / weight-related successes, frustrations or anything else on your mind. I’ll be back later in the week with a bit of a photo shoot!

Take care

Love Erika xx

Total recordable weight loss:Current weight:BMI:
178 lbs151 lbs22.8
Original ultimate weight loss goal was to get to 158 lbs

Week 69 weigh-in: These scale numbers are NEW!

Hey guys

First, I’m soooo sorry. This weigh-in comes a whopping 4 days past my usual Monday weigh-ins as I had something that I got caught up with but, hey, better late than never! I’m just bursting to crack on with this week’s report card so let’s take a look:

What’s happened this week?

  • I’m now under 11 stone
  • I’ve lost more than 12.5 stone in all
  • My weight’s in the low 150 lbs having started at 329
  • My weight, in terms of kilograms, is now in the 60s
  • My BMI’s very close to going under 23
  • My body fat percentage is very close to going under 27 %
  • I’ve seen numbers on the scales today that I cannot recall EVER seeing!
  • I’m wearing smaller jeans despite the excess skin (US size 8, UK size 12)
  • I’m drinking so much more fluid than before
  • I’m working out daily but in a fun way
  • I’m eating a wider variety of food than in previous few months

What could Erika improve on?

  • I’m aware that I’ve already gone past my ultimate weight loss goal and I need to not keep thinking “a bit more, a bit more” with the atypical anorexic voice…

Erika’s next target(s):

  • ….. but saying that, I’d just like to get into the 140 lbs so that leaves 4 lbs to go…. after which I think that’s my settling point to then maintain

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So, I was exactly 7 lbs when I was born but the lightest I can ever recall seeing on the scales is 11 stone 2 (i.e. 156 lbs) when I was 18 and I never thought I’d ever see 10 stone-anything crop up on my scales…. but I have today! Having now lost 176 lbs in all, I can’t tell you how more easily my body moves. Yes, I have significant excess skin, yes it’s uncomfortable when I sit on a hard surface because my body is lacking definition but I feel free. I’ve started doing dance aerobics each day and that puts a huge smile on my face! Honestly, putting on my favourite music tracks and just moving is really making a difference to the scales again. When I started out on this journey 18 months ago, I dared to visualise how things would be if I were lighter and smaller but my reality right now is so much better than anything I could picture.

This weekend, I’m finally ticking off another experience from my weight loss bucket list after it being postponed before but I’ll tell you more on Monday. And I guess this links to what I’ve just said above about feeling free. I had felt so trapped at the beginning of 2020, very aware how my weight and size were stopping me from doing things, not only in terms of confidence but there were things I couldn’t physically do. And I’m now in a place where I have more freedom about what to wear, about doing these experiences that come with a weight limit, etc. If you’re feeling stuck where you are with weight loss, please know that I ‘get it’. I’ve been there. I’ve been in that place thinking that things weren’t going to change. But it really can change by starting with tiny goals and just daring to visualise how things can be. And if dancing around the house to cheesy 1980s pop gets you moving more, well, why not! Let’s crank up the volume and dance like no one’s watching!

As ever, please feel free to share your diet / weight-related successes, frustrations or anything else on your mind. Have a good weekend, everyone

Take care

Love Erika xx

Total recordable weight loss:Current weight:BMI:
176 lbs153 lbs23.1
Original ultimate weight loss goal was to get to 158 lbs

Week 68 weigh-in: I DID IT!!!!

Hello guys

Oh….my…..goodness!!!!! I started this journey almost 18 months ago at a weight of 329 lbs and my BMI at 50. My goal? To lose 150 lbs in addition to the 21 lbs I’d already lost. The thought of getting out of the obese or overweight categories seemed like a pipe dream but I knew that I had to just focus on each tiny goal at a time and not see it as a diet. As time went on, I dared to wonder if I could get down to my 1996 wedding weight of 170 lbs before our silver anniversary later this month with the aim to lose the rest by the end of 2021. But I passed this milestone early and therefore I wondered if I really could reach that ultimate goal of 158 before the anniversary. Well, I’ve done it! Today, I’ve hit 157 lbs which takes me more securely into the healthy range with my BMI now 23.6…. and that’s including significant excess skin. In fact, I cannot recall EVER EVER EVER being lower than 156 so I do plan to lose another 2 lbs to see 155 magically appear!

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From 329 to 157 lbs!!

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310305300295
290285280275
270265260255
250245240235
230225220215
210205200195
190185180175
170165160158

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BMI from 50 to under 25 (but actually now under 24!)

5049.54948.5
4847.54746.5
4645.54544.5
4443.54342.5
4241.54140.5
4039.53938.5
3837.53736.5
3635.53534.5
3433.53332.5
3231.53130.5
3029.52928.5
2827.52726.5
2625.525<25

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No longer being super obese (BMI 50+)
No longer being morbidly obese (BMI 40-49.9)
No longer being in the upper obese range (BMI 35-39.9)
No longer being obese (BMI 30-34.9)
No longer being overweight (BMI 25-29.9) because I’m a HEALTHY WEIGHT! (BMI 19-24)

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However, I’m still going to blog at least once a week for two reasons. First, as those who’ve been following my blog will know, I’m currently in treatment for atypical anorexia and I hope that being open about this struggle will help at least one person out there. Second, the next stage is about maintenance and that’s why I set myself the target of getting to 158 lbs. This is 7 lbs into the healthy range and I don’t expect to remain this exact weight. However, by keeping an eye on my weight and giving myself a 7 lb buffer, I can allow my weight to slightly fluctuate (which is normal!!) but have a point at which I’d want to take action again if I go into the overweight category. I’m hoping this is a healthy approach to maintenance.

I’ll be back later this week to talk through things non-scale related. You see, when I started out on this journey, I used visualisation to imagine how things could be if I was anywhere near my weight loss goal in terms of how I’d feel. So, I’ll be back to share how life has totally changed, not just the scales, and I’ll also tell you about a weekly class I’ve just signed up to start next month which will keep me fit. As ever, please feel free to share your own weight loss journey, your achievements, your frustrations, whatever’s on your mind.

Take care

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight lossStill to lose:Current weight:BMI:
172 lbs 0 lb157 lbs23.6
Including 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

After extreme weight loss, excess skin photos and a plan!

Hey guys

Well, after talking last week about the various ways that I can deal with excess skin, I’ve been thinking SO much about where to go from here. Whilst there’s a place near to me that offers skin tightening through radio frequency and I’ve been on the verge of arranging a consultation there, I’ve come to a conclusion having looked at the before and after photos on the website. They really don’t appear to show a massive difference, even though the ‘before’ photos seem to be of people with less excess skin than me.

Before I share my plan, here’re some photos of just some of my excess skin….. this feels a bit scary but, hey, this is me after losing more than half my body weight!

letting it hang

Literally holding it all in… well, as much as possible with one hand!
I could feel low about this…..
… but this shows me how far I’ve come

Realistically, I think surgery would be the way forward to get as close to a dream body and whilst we could afford it, I guess I don’t want it badly enough to brave going under the knife! I’m lucky in that it doesn’t really cause me too many physical problems… certainly nothing I can’t deal with.

So, I’ve decided that my plan going forwards is going to consist of two things. First, weights! Yes, I’m going to lift weights to minimise my bingo wings and perhaps get some definition in my body. I’ll start with weights at home but might find a personal trainer too. Second, I’m going to wear clothes creatively. I shared this photo recently revealing the skin on my arms but also the corrugated-card effect on my legs. Whilst I was a bit proud that I could share this photo, I also had an overwhelming feeling that I’d need to live in jeans and maxi dresses……

…but I’ve bought a tea dress and, with dark tights and boots, it’s really given me a lift that I could perhaps get creative with clothes. Yes, I guess I’m still covering up but in a way that wearing something like a tea dress is actually liberating. So far, as you can probably guess from some recent posts, I’ve worn it only in my bedroom so my family hasn’t seen this but I’m going to set myself a challenge to wear this in front of my family by the end of next weekend… before aiming to wear it out of the house…. possibly?? At least in the dark first!!!

I’ve suspected for some time that I may have lipoedema or something similar as my legs became large when I hit puberty. My mum delightfully referred to them as ‘tree trunk’ legs….. mmmmm!! And I guess it’s no wonder why I feel conscious about them. It’s been interesting to see if my lower legs have reduced in size as I’ve lost weight but they still feel disproportionate….. but dark tights and a smile on my face will hopefully not lead to people glancing twice!

I’ll be back on Monday with my latest weigh-in after a VERY exciting day planned for this Sunday when I tick off something else from my weight loss bucket list.

Have a good weekend everyone

love Erika xx

Week 66: I ‘flew’ on the world’s fastest zip wire!

Hey folks

So, first of all, no weigh in this week after all as I was away yesterday morning and I don’t know….. Monday morning has always been the time when I’ve taken the figure on the scales as my official figure. But I will update you next week.

However, why was I not here dutifully standing on the scales? Because I went away this weekend and had a blast! I spent a couple of days in beautiful Wales and, with it being my first trip away in 18 months due to Covid, I can’t tell you how much fitter I felt now that I’m more than 160 lbs down. I was climbing over walls, strolling along mountain streams and almost running up stairs! But I also got to tick off something on my weight loss bucket list. I went on the world’s fastest zip wire which, at over 1.5 km, is also Europe’s longest. This is something that I could haven’t done 18 months ago due to being over the weight limit.

I did have a moment of absolute panic. I didn’t realise that I had jumped onto some scales, revealing my weight to a young guy behind the counter. As part of the check in process, I was asked to stand on an X which I did without questioning, assuming it was some type of ID thing. It wasn’t until I got off that I realised what I’d done. But as I say, it was a moment of absolute panic. That moment came to an end and it would have been merely a figure to him before moving onto the next. The other moment that I found hard was when I was kitted up and had staff working there tugging at the harness that I’d been strapped into. Some parts of me are bony but I also have an incredible amount of excess skin which I’m struggling with and I felt horrible but I could put those thoughts aside (until I had therapy later in the day) and get on to have one of the most thrilling, exhilarating, liberating experiences of my life.

The dreaded scales… but I survived!

There are two zip lines at Zip World in north Wales (about a 20 minute drive from Bangor) and, on both, you lie horizontally, flying through the air whilst attached to the overhead cable. Flying over the quarry and the turquoise water below was thrilling enough on the first one and then, after a 15 minute ascent to the second launch station, it was a mere 55 second drop but wow wow wow!!!!!!! I LOVED it!!!! It’s actually really exciting to be discovering that I’m someone who loves outdoor pursuits and who knows what more I’ll be doing as I start to accept and perhaps love me and my body.

About to launch from the lower of the two zip lines
After the first zip line, it’s a 15 minute ascent by army truck to the top launch station
Time to launch!
See ya!

Well, I know what’s next. I’m abseiling from the UK’s highest sculpture next Sunday, I’ve a helicopter lesson in September, I’m horse riding in September (plus hopefully some other activities I’m looking into for my trip to Cornwall) and then I’m driving a Ferrari in October. These are all things that I was previously too heavy or large to do at 329 lbs. If you’re on a weight loss journey and you find yourself feeling stuck, my advice is to imagine what you’d like to be able to do at your target weight – whether it’s imagining yourself wearing size ‘X’ or doing some incredible activity. If we can visualise our future success, perhaps it makes it more likely we’ll get there and not feel stuck where we are at the moment.

I’ll be back later this week as I’m making the call tomorrow to a place about treatment for excess skin. I might even share a photo of me wearing a tea dress – something I’ve wanted to wear for a while ❤ and then next Monday I’ll be sharing my new weight and chatting through all things abseiling-related!

Love Erika xx

P.S. Just throwing in a couple of photos of my walks around Snowdonia

The lonely Tree of Llanberis – yes, that really is what it’s known as!
Blessed with beautiful weather on my 24 hour trip in Wales

Introducing… my weight loss bucket list!

Hey folks

I wonder if anyone can relate but I found pre-weight loss that there were many things I wanted to do but couldn’t. Sometimes, it was because there was a weight limit attached to particular activities or it came down to a lack of confidence. Now that I’ve lost quite a lot, there’s a host of things that I want to do and, in fact, I ticked off my first one on Sunday. So, here’re the 10 things that my weight loss and growing confidence mean I now feel ready to get on with:

  1. Zip wire! Yes, last Sunday, I went on a Go Ape Tree Top Adventure where I had the most buzzing time. That first zip wire was a bit scary but, by the 5th, I was hurling myself off the platforms, ready to glide past the trees in the forest. You can read more about it HERE.

So, what else is on my list?

2. Abseil off the ArcelorMittal Orbit at the Olympic Park which is the tallest sculpture in the UK. Last night, I booked my ticket to do this in August. Once I go up in the lift and see panoramic views of London, I’ll then abseil 80 metres down… although another way to go down is the slide!! Worth checking out the photos online.

3. Helicopter lesson. I’m not too far from the coast here in the UK so flying over the English Channel will be amazing.

4. Go on an aeroplane. I used to fly loads when I was younger but I felt really self conscious about my weight so as soon as Covid is more under control, I’ve got my first trip away planned to Copenhagen in Denmark where I’ll pop over the bridge to Malmo in Sweden too.

5. RIB boat experience on the River Thames which is basically going on a speed boat.

6. Zorbing. This involves climbing inside a huge bubble-like structure, attaching myself to the harness and then hurling myself down a hill! What could go wrong?!

7. Horse riding. I’ve got a place in mind but the dietitian has advised having a DEXA scan first. More about that another day.

8. Indoor sky dive. Not many places in the UK do it but there’s somewhere within reasonable reach of here where you get kitted up with a jumpsuit, helmet and goggles, and step into a wind tunnel kinda thing where you then put your body into a star shape and fly! Oh…. all that loose skin on my body will have a field day!!!!!

9. Drive a racing car around Silverstone. Space in those cars looks tight but I think I could get in there now.

10. Possibly…. and I mean possibly (!!!!)… a real sky dive! This one might change…… I’d love to do it and, wow, what an amazing feeling I’d have but would I have the guts to leave the plane? Not sure!

My plan is to always have something booked and therefore something to always look forward to so by the time I abseil in August, I’ll have another activity from my list booked, perhaps for September.

Do you have things on your list that you’d like to do? They don’t have to be sports related. It could be having a personal shopper experience, having a massage, etc.

Love Erika xx

I’ll be swinging like Tarzan on Sunday!

Hey everyone

I’m asking myself today what on earth I’ve signed up for! Last night, I found myself on the website of a local place that offers a range of physical adventures and I’ve now got 2 things in my diary…. both are things that I couldn’t have done 16 months ago due to the weight restrictions:

  • This Sunday, I’m doing the Tree Top Challenge which is a 2-3 hour experience of wearing a harness, going up 25 metres amongst the trees in the forest, swinging into nets, climbing through things, stepping along suspended rings, going down a zip wire and so much more. The one bit that scares me is the Tarzan swing as I don’t mind heights whatsoever but, after booking it, I saw a video of someone swinging on the rope and …. oh…. my ….. goodness! Am I really going to be doing that?!!!
  • And then the following weekend, I’m doing a 1 hour Segway experience through the forest which won’t be so exhausting but will still be something very new for me.

Both adventures are with Go Ape in the UK and wow I’m excited. I’ll tell you more about it when I check in on Monday but this desire to book things comes from a place of wanting to enjoy my new body, wanting to have fun, wanting to have things to look forward to…. and I’m all up for the comfort zone being pushed 🙂 Not sure about the chance to take photos but I’ll see what I can do!

Hope you have a great weekend

Love Erika xx