Week 45 (less 1 day) weigh-in: No longer obese!

Hey guys

Although I do my official weigh-ins on Mondays, today is one of those days to throw the ‘How Erika Blogs‘ rulebook out of the window! I was sitting here on this Sunday drafting my blog but I just had to cave into the demands of the ‘publish’ button as there are many positives to share this week. What I must be mindful of though is to not slam on the brakes and take my eyes off the long term goal. When I finally got out of the ‘morbidly obese’ category last summer, it felt as if I’d completed some ultramarathon and I became too lax once I crossed the finishing line… before talking a huge gulp when realising that, yes, whilst I’d reached a huge milestone, I wasn’t yet at the end of my journey. And in fact, will there be an end? No, not really because even when I do hit ‘goal weight’. maintenance is probably going to be an entirely different animal to get to know and tame. But let’s check out this week’s report card:

What’s Erika done well this week?

  • I lost 5 lbs
  • I hit Onederland! Yes, my weight is now under 200 lbs
  • I’m now in the ‘overweight’ category…. with my BMI having gone from 50 to under 30
  • I’ve now lost more than 75% of my excess weight
  • I’ve continued to keep myself hydrated

What could Erika improve on?

  • Nothing… 🙂

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 1lb until I’ve lost 9.5 stone
  • 1 lb until I’m light enough to go horse riding at a local stables… naked!!! I might want to lose a few more pounds so that I can get under the maximum weight that allow for my clothes, boots, etc. 😉
  • 2 lbs until I’m under 14 stone
  • 4 lbs until my BMI is under 29.5
  • 8 lbs until I’m in the 180s and I’ve lost 10 stone

So, there’s been lots to celebrate and I can’t deny that I’ve been buzzing. But actually, I’m also struggling too with weight loss, my body and how I’m feeling about it which I’ll talk about more later in the week. Don’t worry.. it’s not going to be a ‘woe is me‘ post! It shouldn’t be too depressing to read!! But I guess it’s important to acknowledge that going on a journey like this isn’t always a bed of roses and it can bring up all kinds of feelings, some expected, some not. Until then, please feel free to share your own experiences including celebrations or frustrations and any questions you’d like to ask me…

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
111 lbs39 lbs197 lbs29.9
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

After losing 130 lbs, I’ve reached ONEderland!!!!!

Oh. My. Word! I’ve done it!!!!!!

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For anyone who’s only just now coming across my blog, a huge ‘hello” to you! I’m just a regular 40-something year old who’s on a huge weight loss journey and who, as of today, has lost 130 lbs since 14th February last year. 21 lbs were lost prior to blogging and then a further 109 lbs since posting 2 – 3 times a week sharing in my inner most thoughts.

Part of me thought I’d never see my weight go below 200 lbs but part of me did….. and it’s because I visualise success. Like when I wanted to fit into my jeans, I pictured myself wearing them, how I’d feel, etc. and that really helped spur me on. And I pictured seeing the scales show my weight beginning with a 1 and that’s exactly what I saw this morning. If I can picture where my journey’s heading, I’m more likely to stay on it…. at least, that works for me!

For major milestones, I treat myself and I’ve bought two things to celebrate this one:

  • Apple Air Pods Pro which I’m having delivered tonight (I love companies that can deliver the same day!)
  • A little charm to go on my keys which is a number ‘1’. Thing is, if people see this charm, they won’t know the significance of what it means to me but it’s my secret reminder of how today feels.

And do you know what? I’m just 2-3 lbs away from another HUGE milestone as I’m almost out of the obese category. My BMI started out at 50 so this feels like a massive accomplishment……

I’ll be back on Monday with my next official weekly weigh-in but spoiler alert… there’ll be lots of positive things to celebrate 🙂

Wishing you a great weekend

Love Erika xx

2 weeks on a vibrating plate… my wobbly bits have wobbled!

Hi folks

When I think of images from the 1950s, I’m thinking: black and white cinematography, vintage clothing and Buddy Holly. But I also think of images of immaculately-dressed women with perfect hair and make-up holding an upright pose whilst a thick rubber belt wraps around their waists and buzzes away, supposedly helping them to keep their waists super trim.

Now, whilst these belts do still exist in some form, I got curious and thought I’d treat myself to a vibrating plate. The Reviber comes with a manual so I was thinking ‘Fantastic. Let’s check out some simple exercises I can do on this” only to find most of the images inside depicting Olympic-standard athletes somehow mastering superhuman activities like single-handed planking (well, that’s superhuman to me!!). But I guess I’ve figured out my own routine that works for me and I go on my vibrating plate for 10 minutes a day. And what’s great is that, according to my FitBit, the top speeds put my heart rate into fat burning mode whilst I feel as if my body has morphed into a pneumatic drill that will undoubtedly result in a huge crater evolving in my living room!

My main motivation is to lose inches. Two weeks probably isn’t long enough to do a proper comparison and who knows whether inch loss would have happened on food choices alone… (I don’t think this ‘scientific’ approach would pass an ethics committee) but here are my stats…. so far:

Day 1 (in inches)Day 14 (in inches)
Chest44.2544
Waist35.535
Abdomen4645
Hips4543.75
Thigh2625.5
Calf19.2519.25
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So, small changes in this time but I’m pleased, especially considering how my hips and abdomen were almost 60″ early last year. Who knows where I might be in another 2, 4, 6 weeks.

And I just wanted to share 3 other images with you today. Permission to feel a little bit smug when my FitBit tells me that my cardio fitness is between the good and very good levels….. but also a screenshot from a BMI calculator where I can now see my weight reflected by the black arrow that’s slowly edging towards the middle. I can’t believe that my BMI / weight’s visible…. and I want to instinctively say “AND I’M VISIBLE”. Wow! Where did that come from?! I’m turning into my own psychotherapist ❤ Whilst I love travelling and I’ll get up to all manner of things well away from home like in other countries, I’ve hidden away in my own community for the past few years. Mmmm, I think I know what the subject of Friday’s post will be…

So, Friday’s blog will reflect on the extent I’ve gone into hiding over the past few years unless some eagerly anticipated miracle on the scales happens between now and then…

Love Erika xx

Week 43 weigh-in: the excitement of being overweight!

Hey folks

Yes, you DID read the title of this post correctly and I’m going to credit fellow blogger Matt for this title. Last week, I shared my excitement that I’m soon going to officially be overweight and, through the comments, Matt and I could laugh at how rare it must be to hear someone say this. But, you see, I can’t wait. My BMI was 50 and therefore anything below 30 would have been inconceivable this time last year but this week’s report card will show you that it’s soon going to be a reality ❤ and I’ll reach another amazing milestone even sooner!

What’s Erika done well this week?

  • I lost 3 lbs
  • My BMI is now under 31
  • I’ve now lost more than 9 stone (i.e. that’s UK-speak for 9 x 14 lbs)
  • I’ve been walking at least 5K each day
  • I did a Chloe Tring high intensity workout… and this was amazing as there’s no way that I could’ve got up if I’d sat on the floor a year ago. Now, I bounce straight back up.

What could Erika improve on?

  • I’ll always be honest with you (I’ve promised that from day 1) but I do need to watch those anorexic thought patterns creeping in
  • Not jumping on the scales quite so often

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 2 lbs until my BMI is under 30.5 and I will have lost 75% of my excess weight
  • 3 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
  • 6 lbs until I’ve lost 9.5 stone
  • 6 lbs until my BMI is under 30 and I’ll be overweight… might even be 5 lbs and a few ounces

Bearing in mind how much weight I’ve lost, I’ve been looking into a place near me that offers non-surgical treatment for sagging skin, fat removal, etc. I’m a realist and I know there’ll be limitations about what I can achieve body-wise without going under the knife. But the two parts of my body that will impact me even more than my sagging belly are my upper arms (i.e. bingo wings) and my inner thighs that are stopping me from wearing my jeans despite easily getting into them. So, I’m contemplating getting in touch with the clinic now although I guess I’ll wait until my BMI is much lower before starting treatment. It’s not cheap but if it gives me the confidence to not cover up, it may be worth every penny. I’ll keep you posted.

AND I’m contemplating using my weight loss journey to launch a new career….. more about that another time!

I’ll be back on Wednesday to review how my first two weeks using a vibrating plate have gone and I’ll hopefully be back on Friday too (apologies for not posting last Friday – time just whizzed by here). Until then, please feel free to share your own experiences including celebrations or frustrations and any questions you’d like to ask me!

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
106 lbs44 lbs202 lbs30.7
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

Week 40 weigh-in: planning ahead is key!

Hey folks

I can’t wait to share with you several goals I’ve managed to smash this week but I wanted to first share my discovery how planning ahead is absolutely the way to do this weight loss journey thing… and probably something I’ll continue doing once I get to my eventual weight loss goal.

I don’t know about you but I don’t always make the best choices when I’m standing in my kitchen, trying to work out what to eat. It’s like I’m looking in the cupboards and fridge not knowing what I really want and this unclear thinking can lead to making some kind of weird food choices. So, I’ve made one big change this week. The night before, I decide what I’m going to eat the next day. I go to sleep feeling in control as it takes away any anxiety and this has resulted in the pounds dropping. At some point, I’d like to do weekly plans which will help with making food buying much easier if I know what the week’s meals will be. So, without further ado, here’s this week’s report card:

What’s Erika done well this week?

  • I’ve lost 4 lbs this week
  • My BMI is now in the 31s
  • I’m now under 15 stone having lost more than 8.5 stone
  • I’ve lost exactly 100 lbs since my blog started (although I’d lost 21 lbs prior to this)
  • I have exactly 50 lbs left to go until I hit my target weight
  • I’ve been focusing on staying hydrated
  • I’m within 10 lbs of being under 200 lbs!

What could Erika improve on?

  • I feel like I’ve done well this week. As always, I feel rather pretentious saying there’s nothing to improve on but I guess I need to learn to perhaps feel a bit more comfortable with this. It’s okay to tell ourselves that, right now, we’re doing great.

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 2 lbs until my BMI is in the lower 31s
  • 5 lbs until I’ve lost 9 stone in all
  • 9 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
  • 12 lbs until I’m no longer obese as I’ll be overweight

I’ll be back on Wednesday but, until then as ever, please feel free to share your own experiences including celebrations or frustrations and any questions you’d like to ask me!

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
100 lbs50 lbs208 lbs31.6
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

Week 39 weigh-in: bulk up meals to lose weight

Hey guys

I’m going to get straight into this week’s report card:

What’s Erika done well this week?

  • I’ve lost 6 lbs. Now, this includes the 5lbs that I somehow put on last week (that didn’t appear to link to ‘the time of the month’). I was aiming to see if I could lose that 5lbs so that extra pound really is a fantastic bonus!
  • I resisted buying cereal bars this week. I’ve discovered that whilst I’ve cut out food like cookies and chocolate with ease, seemingly healthy cereal bars have been my downfall. I mean, one would be perfectly fine but I don’t seem to be able to have one and leave the rest in tact in the box. So, knowing this, the best thing for now is to not have them in the house.
  • I resisted the urge to buy laxatives. Okay, bit of a gross point here but I had a bit of a bad stomach the other night and rather than think ‘Erika, keep yourself hydrated‘, my first thought was ‘hey, weight loss‘. Oops! I briefly thought about when I had bulimia around 25 years ago that involved a very serious addiction to taking large quantities of laxatives everyday. For a moment, I considered starting to take them again but I reminded myself about the damage they can do and, thankfully, the thought of buying some has now passed. You can read about my battle with bulimia here

What could Erika improve on?

  • Bulking up meals. I was reading last night about caloric dense foods (well worth a Google search) and how making good food choices can make it easier to stay full for longer. So, let’s compare a grape and raisin. They’re essentially the same food but eating a bunch of grapes is likely to keep you fuller for longer than the same number in raisins. And that’s because grapes have more water (which we love as water’s 100% calorie free) so 100g of grapes has significantly fewer calories than raisins. So, definitely go for food with more water content. How am I going to use this? I’m going to add more salad and veg to my meals. I found a list online of the least caloric dense foods and the top 15 are:
FoodDensity (calories / gram)
lettuce0.15
spinach0.23
watermelon0.30
strawberry0.32
carrot0.40
orange0.48
2% milk0.50
apple0.52
grapes0.69
boiled potato0.87
banana0.89
ketchup1.00
skinless chicken1.10
brown rice1.10
fish (tilapia)1.13

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 2 lbs until my BMI is in the 31s
  • 3 lbs until I’m under 15 stone
  • 13 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
  • 16 lbs until I’m no longer obese as I’ll be overweight

I’ll be back later this week to talk to you about saggy skin. I might even share photos… let me think about that one though!

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
96 lbs54 lbs212 lbs32.2
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

Week 37 weigh-in: another milestone :)

Hello folks

If I’d focused on the huge goal of losing so much weight when I started out, I would have felt overwhelmed. There’s so much inner dialogue that goes on in my head and no doubt I would have thought something along the lines of “No way am I ever going to achieve that! That’s just a pipe dream’. For some people, yes, eyes on the long term prize is what works for them but I need constant opportunities to celebrate success. And, this week, I’ve achieved another one.

Not only am I out of the super obese, morbid obese and upper obese ranges but I’ve hit the midway point of the lowest obesity category with my BMI hitting the 32.5 mark. Yay! So, I’m going to treat myself to something to celebrate and I’ll let you know what I decide on. On the days when I get frustrated with the scales, I remind myself that the figures I’m seeing now would have been my ‘no way will I get to that weight’ figures months ago! And yes, it’s hard to believe that I’ll get to 154 lbs but I will. One pound at a time!

No longer being super obese (BMI 50+)
No longer being morbidly obese (BMI 40-49.9)
No longer being in the upper obese range (BMI 35-39.9)
No longer being obese (BMI 30-34.9)
No longer being overweight (BMI 25-29.9) because I’m a HEALTHY WEIGHT! (BMI 19-24)

And, as for my weekly report card:

What’s Erika done well this week?

  • I’ve lost 2 lbs
  • My BMI is now in the lower 32s
  • I’ve had great fun selling clothes that are now too big for me on EBay
  • I’ve drunk more and now my body water levels are in the normal range

What could Erika improve on?

  • Nothing this week 🙂

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 3 lbs until my BMI is in the 31s
  • 4 lbs until I’m under 15 stone
  • 14 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
  • 17 lbs until I’m no longer obese as I’ll be overweight

Anyway folks, I’ll be back later this week about what we can do when we feel the hunger pangs…but don’t want to give in!

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
95 lbs55 lbs213 lbs32.4
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

Week 36 weigh-in: I’m gonna feel great THIS summer!

Hello and happy new year to you all!

You know, it actually did me the power of good taking off last week from blogging. I needed to sort out my head but I’m back and SO focused on 2021. One of the things that helps me most? Visualisation. I’m picturing what I’ll be wearing this summer, how I’ll be feeling in my body because I’m more likely to stay focused if I can visualise success. And I’m back here with my weekly report card so here goes:

What’s Erika done well this week?

  • I’ve lost 2 lbs. In fact, after not weighing myself for a couple of weeks, I discovered that I’d somehow put on 4 lbs when I weighed myself on Boxing Day. Perhaps it was at least partly water weight because I’ve managed to lose this quickly plus a further 2 lbs, taking me to my lowest weight for about 10 years.
  • My BMI is now in the 32s.
  • I’m now under 15 1/2 stone.
  • I’m halfway through the 210s.
  • Despite clearly exceeding the weight limit for years, I’m now officially light enough to use my step ladder! Yes, my top weight of 329 lbs may have exceeded the 220 lbs weight limit but I’m now well under this 🙂

What could Erika improve on?

  • Drink more water! Yep, I STILL need to work on this!

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 5 lbs until my BMI is in the 31s
  • 6 lbs until I’m under 15 stone
  • 16 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
  • 19 lbs until I’m no longer obese as I’ll be overweight

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I’ve also been thinking more about my wardrobe. My aim is to feel super comfy in my jeans so that I can wear them everyday from the mid January. I’ve also bought a stunning maxi dress for the summer but, as I mentioned here fairly recently, I’ve loved buying second hand on EBay. Yes, I could treat myself to a brand new wardrobe by buying directly from shops but, when losing a lot of weight, it’s not cheap! One of my favourite bargains so far is this Jaeger coatigan that I won on EBay for a tiny fraction of what it would have cost new. Another 30lbs or so and this will fit nicely perhaps with skinny jeans?

Anyway guys, I’ll be back later this week to give you an overview of some of the topics I’ll be blogging about over the coming weeks. For now, take care and, as ever, please feel free to share my posts or comment if you’d like to share your own weight successes or frustrations.

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
93 lbs57 lbs215 lbs32.7
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

When your mind tells you to sit in the big chair

Hello folks

I had a HUGE revelation this week! With being in some pain yesterday with my feet, I popped along to a medical walk-in centre which was eerily quiet due to Covid. Once I got through the initial questions to make sure I was Covid-safe, I was asked to take a seat and this tiny act is what this extra post is about today.

You see, in the waiting room, there were regular-sized chairs dotted about and also some that were clearly wider than others. And where did I sit? Yes, I instinctively went for one of these wider chairs because that’s what I’ve done for years. I’ve feared chairs with arms because I’ve not always been able to fit. And I sat there for a moment sensing lots of space either side of me before daring to ask myself “I wonder! I wonder if I’ll fit in that standard-sized chair over there. Do I take that risk?” The other thing to ask myself was how it’d look to the receptionists and nurses behind the screened off desk. It might look a bit silly for someone to get out of a chair in an otherwise empty room and move to another one for no apparent reason but this was my opportunity to take a chance…and so I did. And, yes!!! I could sit there without my body touching either arm! Gosh, I wanted to cry with happiness but I just sang a victory song in my head and gave myself permission to feel a tiny bit smug!

It’s these non-scale victories that are there to be celebrated, these victories that others may not ‘get’ but, boy, help us walk along with a spring in our step. And I can’t wait to one day check out other seats like planes, theatres and rollercoasters. Perhaps I can start to imagine life without continually thinking “Will I fit?”

Love Erika xx

Week 33 weigh-in: I’ve lost more than 1/3 of my body weight!

Hey guys

I can’t wait to update you so let’s get straight into this week’s report card:

What’s Erika done well this week?

  • I’ve lost 3 lbs
  • I’ve now lost more than 1/3 of my original body weight (takes into account the 21 lbs I lost prior to blogging). So, my weight has gone from 329 to 217 lbs
  • I’ve now lost exactly 8 stone (i.e. 8 x 14 lbs)
  • I’ve now fewer than 60 lbs to go until I hit my target weight
  • I’ve been eating more in the past few days to make sure that I’m not undereating. Carbs are still down but protein is up 🙂

What could Erika improve on?

  • Drink more water!

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 1 lb until my BMI is in the 32s
  • 8 lbs until I’m under 15 stone
  • 18 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
  • 21 lbs until I’m no longer obese as I’ll be overweight
  • To start wearing my jeans every day after finally being able to do up the button the other day. Another 7 lbs or so and I think I’ll feel much better in them.

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I was thinking earlier that there are so many things that I’d love to be doing now that I’ve lost weight, such as going away on weekend trips and not have to worry about fitting in a plane seat. The only thing stopping me right now is Covid although it doesn’t stop me planning. But I guess what I’ve also reflected on is how I’ve still ‘lived’ during the past few years even when I was around 329 lbs. I still did an off-road driving experience, joined the police for a night shift, went to Disneyland, wandered around Paris on a day trip and so much more. You see, we can think “When I’m smaller….” or “When I’m lighter….” but we never know what’s around the corner and so, yes, whilst there are things we can still dream to do, live for today! You might need to go a bit slower or adapt your plans a bit if you’re not yet your ‘ideal’ size but, more than ever, embrace today!

I’ll be back later this week but, in the meantime, please feel free to share your weight loss successes, frustrations or whatever’s on your mind ❤

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
91 lbs59 lbs217 lbs33
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

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