A relaxing non-scale victory!

A quick post today to tell you that I did something a couple of nights ago which I haven’t done for about 10 years. I had a bubble bath!!!!! Yes, for many years, my weight and size have made a shower the only option to stay clean. Why? Well, I wasn’t sure if I could manoeuvre my body so that I could sit down in the bath and fit comfortably…. but my biggest concern was whether I could get up again.

A bath wasn’t planned but I went for a 2K walk around our hilly village and, at one degree above freezing, I was almost frozen by the time I got home. I thought a bath might be a great way to warm up so, without thinking, I ran the bath, grabbed my Apple AirPods Pro (my treat for getting into Onederland) and really celebrated the fact that I was in a bath listening to music! However, next time, I’m going to think about how to make it more luxurious… perhaps some candles, a glass of Diet Coke (though this sounds like a good time to get to like wine!) and listen to a podcast or two 🙂 Might even do that this weekend!

Hope you have a great weekend everyone and I’ll be back on Monday with my next weigh-in

Love Erika xx

After losing 130 lbs, I’ve reached ONEderland!!!!!

Oh. My. Word! I’ve done it!!!!!!

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For anyone who’s only just now coming across my blog, a huge ‘hello” to you! I’m just a regular 40-something year old who’s on a huge weight loss journey and who, as of today, has lost 130 lbs since 14th February last year. 21 lbs were lost prior to blogging and then a further 109 lbs since posting 2 – 3 times a week sharing in my inner most thoughts.

Part of me thought I’d never see my weight go below 200 lbs but part of me did….. and it’s because I visualise success. Like when I wanted to fit into my jeans, I pictured myself wearing them, how I’d feel, etc. and that really helped spur me on. And I pictured seeing the scales show my weight beginning with a 1 and that’s exactly what I saw this morning. If I can picture where my journey’s heading, I’m more likely to stay on it…. at least, that works for me!

For major milestones, I treat myself and I’ve bought two things to celebrate this one:

  • Apple Air Pods Pro which I’m having delivered tonight (I love companies that can deliver the same day!)
  • A little charm to go on my keys which is a number ‘1’. Thing is, if people see this charm, they won’t know the significance of what it means to me but it’s my secret reminder of how today feels.

And do you know what? I’m just 2-3 lbs away from another HUGE milestone as I’m almost out of the obese category. My BMI started out at 50 so this feels like a massive accomplishment……

I’ll be back on Monday with my next official weekly weigh-in but spoiler alert… there’ll be lots of positive things to celebrate 🙂

Wishing you a great weekend

Love Erika xx

Week 42 weigh-in: 9 lbs away from no longer being obese!

Hey guys

YES!! Moving down into the ‘overweight’ category really is just around the corner, something I could’ve only dreamt of a year ago. I’ve got several small goals coming up and therefore opportunities to celebrate. And celebrating is important! Whether we’re at the beginning of our weight loss journey or some way in, I feel it’s so important to acknowledge these moments and be kind to ourselves in what we say. Rather than think “I’ve lost only 1 lb“, say “That’s great. Another pound towards the next goal“. Rather than think “I’ll never get there. I’m resigned to be this weight forever”, say “It may take time but I have to start somewhere. Let’s set some short and long term goals“.

Okay, it’s time for this week’s report card:

What’s Erika done well this week?

  • I lost 3 lbs.
  • My BMI is now in the lower 31s.
  • I’ve been working out lots. As well as the vibrating plate (more about that next week), I’ve been walking at least 5K each day…. from just around the house due to the snow here.
  • I’ve been staying hydrated… something I can find hard to do.
  • I reframed a difficult moment. The other day, I looked down at my thighs whilst standing and I was taken aback to see the amount of sagging skin. You know when a puppy is yet to grow into its skin and its skin is very wrinkly? Well, that’s how my upper thighs are looking. But after a moment feeling pretty sorry for myself, I gave myself a good talking to and reminded myself that it’s okay! This is the evidence of my hard work over the last year so be proud, girl!

What could Erika improve on?

  • I’ve had some days when it’s been quite a struggle to eat enough and I guess some of those previous anorexic thoughts have crept in. Perhaps this should be listed above as I’ve done well to recognise these familiar thinking patterns but I think I’ll leave this here as a reminder to not let myself slip.

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 2 lbs until my BMI is under 31
  • 2 lbs until I will have lost 9 stone in all
  • 5 lbs until my BMI is under 30.5
  • 6 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
  • 9 lbs until I’ve lost 9.5 stone
  • 9 lbs until my BMI is under 30 and I’ll be overweight

And here’s the dress I mentioned last week that’s way beyond what I’d normally wear. It’s not a maxi dress and it’ll mean showing my lower legs to others!

So, posts later on this week will look at whether to reintroduce some sweet food into my diet and another ‘top 10’ list of tips and tricks to stay on track with the eating because I’m still learning all the time! If I can pass on what I’m learning to help others, then that’s pretty cool. Until then, please feel free to share your own experiences including celebrations or frustrations and any questions you’d like to ask me!

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
103 lbs47 lbs205 lbs31.2
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

Weight loss, sagging skin and photos!

Hey folks

I guess I’m probably ticking all the boxes for why I’m getting sagging skin:

  • I’ve lost well over 100 lbs
  • I’ve lost this in just under a year
  • I’ve spent much of my life being overweight or obese with a top BMI of 50 so my skin’s been stretched for a long time
  • I’m in my late 40s so any elasticity in my skin has upped and left!

Where’s this sagging skin appearing? It’s mainly over my upper and lower abdomen, the tops of my thighs and my arms where my bingo wings seem to have developed their own bingo wings. My hope is to control this as much as possible through diet and exercise but I’ve been thinking whether I’d want skin removal surgery. It’s pretty big surgery with recovery time of 4-6 weeks and, as I write blog, I’m watching an episode of My Extreme Excess Skin featuring Dr Nowzaradan from My 600lb Life fame (I’d love to meet him!!). Whilst other episodes feature people who’ve lost 200-500 lbs, this one’s about someone who’s lost 170 lbs which pretty much reflects the total journey I’m on but she had bariatric surgery. Do people lose weight at a quicker speed after bariatric surgery? Am I likely to have a similar appearance to this pre-op lady? You see, I really don’t think I’ll ever be someone who wants to hang around the pool in a bikini but I’d just love to wear clothes with confidence. So, I think I’ll continue on my journey and re-evaluate as I get nearer to my goal weight. Perhaps I’ll buy super strong underwear to hold my body together instead! The thought of having my belly button repositioned is enough to turn my stomach!!!

Before I go, I thought I’d share some photos to show you my bingo wings and how I can fold up the skin! And rather brave photos of my belly where you can see how the skin can easily be moved around. Goodness, despite hiding behind my laptop anonymously, sharing these photos feels scary so please be kind! This is me….with more than 117lbs lost and around 50 lbs left to go!

Hope you have a great weekend. I’ll be back on Monday with my next weigh-in and will then be aiming to blog 3 times a week as I head towards my target weight 🙂

Love Erika xx

Week 39 weigh-in: bulk up meals to lose weight

Hey guys

I’m going to get straight into this week’s report card:

What’s Erika done well this week?

  • I’ve lost 6 lbs. Now, this includes the 5lbs that I somehow put on last week (that didn’t appear to link to ‘the time of the month’). I was aiming to see if I could lose that 5lbs so that extra pound really is a fantastic bonus!
  • I resisted buying cereal bars this week. I’ve discovered that whilst I’ve cut out food like cookies and chocolate with ease, seemingly healthy cereal bars have been my downfall. I mean, one would be perfectly fine but I don’t seem to be able to have one and leave the rest in tact in the box. So, knowing this, the best thing for now is to not have them in the house.
  • I resisted the urge to buy laxatives. Okay, bit of a gross point here but I had a bit of a bad stomach the other night and rather than think ‘Erika, keep yourself hydrated‘, my first thought was ‘hey, weight loss‘. Oops! I briefly thought about when I had bulimia around 25 years ago that involved a very serious addiction to taking large quantities of laxatives everyday. For a moment, I considered starting to take them again but I reminded myself about the damage they can do and, thankfully, the thought of buying some has now passed. You can read about my battle with bulimia here

What could Erika improve on?

  • Bulking up meals. I was reading last night about caloric dense foods (well worth a Google search) and how making good food choices can make it easier to stay full for longer. So, let’s compare a grape and raisin. They’re essentially the same food but eating a bunch of grapes is likely to keep you fuller for longer than the same number in raisins. And that’s because grapes have more water (which we love as water’s 100% calorie free) so 100g of grapes has significantly fewer calories than raisins. So, definitely go for food with more water content. How am I going to use this? I’m going to add more salad and veg to my meals. I found a list online of the least caloric dense foods and the top 15 are:
FoodDensity (calories / gram)
lettuce0.15
spinach0.23
watermelon0.30
strawberry0.32
carrot0.40
orange0.48
2% milk0.50
apple0.52
grapes0.69
boiled potato0.87
banana0.89
ketchup1.00
skinless chicken1.10
brown rice1.10
fish (tilapia)1.13

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 2 lbs until my BMI is in the 31s
  • 3 lbs until I’m under 15 stone
  • 13 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
  • 16 lbs until I’m no longer obese as I’ll be overweight

I’ll be back later this week to talk to you about saggy skin. I might even share photos… let me think about that one though!

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
96 lbs54 lbs212 lbs32.2
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

Week 38: My BMI might be high but…

Hello guys

Well, I discovered two things in this past week:

  • At 111 / 74, my blood pressure is in the normal range. I’m so chuffed as it was really high the last time I had it taken a few years ago.
  • My ‘waist hip ratio’ is in the lower cardiovascular risk category and very much links to me being a pear-shaped person. You can work out your WHR with a tape measure and a calculator or you can find an online calculator to work it out for you. With my waist at 36″ and my hips at 48″, it puts my ratio at 0.75. And this is a HUGE achievement because last summer (i.e. a few months after starting this journey), my ratio would have come into the high risk category.
MenWomenClassification
0.95 or lower0.80 or lowerLow health risk
0.96 to 1.00.81 to 0.84Moderate risk
1.0 or higher0.85 or higherHigh risk

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And, as for my weekly report card:

How’s Erika done this week?

  • I’ve PUT ON 5 lbs. Now, I’m absolutely not panicking because I last weighed myself on Friday when I’d maintained at 213 and, unless I’ve consumed an additional 17,500 calories over the weekend on top of what I should have been eating, there’s no way that I’ve truly gained 5 lbs!! So, I’m remaining calm as I suspect this is temporary.
  • I wore my jeans on Friday. It was SO brilliant to wear these (check out these photos to see me slowly getting into them over the months)
  • I discovered that my thighs no longer rub when I walk. I’m not sure how long this has been the case but I was just aware the other day about my legs moving freely!
  • I’m discovering bones! My collarbone is visible, my ribs and vertebrae are easy to feel, and my shoulders are getting bonier.

What could Erika improve on?

  • I’m drinking enough although lots of diet soda rather than water but, well, let’s just say that I haven’t been going to the bathroom much. I’ve read that drinking lots of water can help deal with any water retention so I’ll give this a go. And I really should cut back on the diet soda…. I just like it SO much!

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 19 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
  • 22 lbs until I’m no longer obese as I’ll be overweight

Okay guys, I’m going to get on with my day but I’ll be back later this week to share with you something I’ve made to help me on my journey.

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
90 lbs60 lbs218 lbs33.1
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

Week 37 weigh-in: another milestone :)

Hello folks

If I’d focused on the huge goal of losing so much weight when I started out, I would have felt overwhelmed. There’s so much inner dialogue that goes on in my head and no doubt I would have thought something along the lines of “No way am I ever going to achieve that! That’s just a pipe dream’. For some people, yes, eyes on the long term prize is what works for them but I need constant opportunities to celebrate success. And, this week, I’ve achieved another one.

Not only am I out of the super obese, morbid obese and upper obese ranges but I’ve hit the midway point of the lowest obesity category with my BMI hitting the 32.5 mark. Yay! So, I’m going to treat myself to something to celebrate and I’ll let you know what I decide on. On the days when I get frustrated with the scales, I remind myself that the figures I’m seeing now would have been my ‘no way will I get to that weight’ figures months ago! And yes, it’s hard to believe that I’ll get to 154 lbs but I will. One pound at a time!

No longer being super obese (BMI 50+)
No longer being morbidly obese (BMI 40-49.9)
No longer being in the upper obese range (BMI 35-39.9)
No longer being obese (BMI 30-34.9)
No longer being overweight (BMI 25-29.9) because I’m a HEALTHY WEIGHT! (BMI 19-24)

And, as for my weekly report card:

What’s Erika done well this week?

  • I’ve lost 2 lbs
  • My BMI is now in the lower 32s
  • I’ve had great fun selling clothes that are now too big for me on EBay
  • I’ve drunk more and now my body water levels are in the normal range

What could Erika improve on?

  • Nothing this week 🙂

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 3 lbs until my BMI is in the 31s
  • 4 lbs until I’m under 15 stone
  • 14 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
  • 17 lbs until I’m no longer obese as I’ll be overweight

Anyway folks, I’ll be back later this week about what we can do when we feel the hunger pangs…but don’t want to give in!

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
95 lbs55 lbs213 lbs32.4
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

Week 33 weigh-in: I’ve lost more than 1/3 of my body weight!

Hey guys

I can’t wait to update you so let’s get straight into this week’s report card:

What’s Erika done well this week?

  • I’ve lost 3 lbs
  • I’ve now lost more than 1/3 of my original body weight (takes into account the 21 lbs I lost prior to blogging). So, my weight has gone from 329 to 217 lbs
  • I’ve now lost exactly 8 stone (i.e. 8 x 14 lbs)
  • I’ve now fewer than 60 lbs to go until I hit my target weight
  • I’ve been eating more in the past few days to make sure that I’m not undereating. Carbs are still down but protein is up 🙂

What could Erika improve on?

  • Drink more water!

Erika’s next target(s):

  • 1 lb until my BMI is in the 32s
  • 8 lbs until I’m under 15 stone
  • 18 lbs until I’m in Onederland (yes, I’ll be less than 200 lbs)
  • 21 lbs until I’m no longer obese as I’ll be overweight
  • To start wearing my jeans every day after finally being able to do up the button the other day. Another 7 lbs or so and I think I’ll feel much better in them.

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I was thinking earlier that there are so many things that I’d love to be doing now that I’ve lost weight, such as going away on weekend trips and not have to worry about fitting in a plane seat. The only thing stopping me right now is Covid although it doesn’t stop me planning. But I guess what I’ve also reflected on is how I’ve still ‘lived’ during the past few years even when I was around 329 lbs. I still did an off-road driving experience, joined the police for a night shift, went to Disneyland, wandered around Paris on a day trip and so much more. You see, we can think “When I’m smaller….” or “When I’m lighter….” but we never know what’s around the corner and so, yes, whilst there are things we can still dream to do, live for today! You might need to go a bit slower or adapt your plans a bit if you’re not yet your ‘ideal’ size but, more than ever, embrace today!

I’ll be back later this week but, in the meantime, please feel free to share your weight loss successes, frustrations or whatever’s on your mind ❤

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
91 lbs59 lbs217 lbs33
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

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YES! I can do up the button on my jeans!!

Oh guys, I said I’d be straight on here where I could share a huge non-scale milestone. Just now, I’ve realised that I can do up the button on my jeans! In July, my jeans barely reached above my knees so I’m buzzing!

I know I shared these first photos last week but this has been my journey 😊

My waist has gone from around 48″ to 36″ but my journey will continue. I’m on a roll as this is today!

Just 4.5 months later!

Hope you’re doing okay and I’ll be back later this week

Love Erika xx

Some more photos! Here’s what I’m eating…

Hey folks

Having lost over 100 lbs, I’d love to tell you that my dinner plates are filled with colourful veg, that I’ve a fruit bowl overflowing with exotic specimens from all over the world and that I’m eating huge volumes of oily fish. But, I’m such a fussy eater! The only food I’m staying away from 100% are chocolate, biscuits, cakes, etc. but, apart from that, it’s all about portion control. Saying that, I do want to reduce my intake of carbs which I’ve started doing today and chicken salad is on my lunch menu 🙂

So, here are some dinners from recent weeks. You know, before February, I would have filled up my plate and not thought about quantity but my stomach (and, very importantly, my head) have adjusted to knowing when to stop.

Yes, for the first time ever, I had a double burger as shown in the photo above but these were turkey burgers. I’d never had these before but I’d read that turkey is super healthy. And the pizza that was delivered to my home? Low fat mozzarella, thin base, etc. all of which makes it as healthy as possible at around 750 calories.

I do love a quiche and, in my quest to reduce my carbs, I was so excited to find this low fat crustless one at 270 calories.

But here’s my latest discovery. No-added sugar jelly! This is 8 calories per pot and, eating it with a teaspoon, I probably burn more calories eating it! I currently have about 20 of these pots in my fridge and they’re the only sweet things I have. It’s been about 35 years since I’d eaten jelly and it was a bit weird eating it again initially but having this ‘go to’ if I’m getting peckish is really helping.

So, let’s see if I can reduce my carbs and perhaps check out some new veg! But the main thing for me is portion control and making this journey sustainable. Yes, it can be hard initially to adjust but, on the occasional time when I wonder about having an extra slice of bread, all I have to ask myself is:

Do I want that slice of bread or do I want to do up the button on my skinny jeans?”

I know the answer every time!

Hope you have a lovely weekend, everyone, and I’ll be back on Monday with my next weigh-in

Love Erika xx