Week 5 weigh-in: Anyone else dance like no one’s watching?!

Feeling the beat!

If none of my family is around and music comes on the radio or TV that gets my feet moving, there’s nothing better than jumping up, dancing around my living room without a single care in the world and knowing that calories are being burned. Can I dance? No, not really! But it does the power of good for mood and, as the weight comes off, I’ve far more energy to do this. After being on crutches for 5 days and my leg feeling so much better, I’m going to introduce dancing into my daily workout and that’s got me thinking. Which are the top songs that you like to dance to? I’m going to compile my top 10 songs for dancing and I’ll share these with you later this week.

Today’s result on the scales

On Thursday, I shared with you that I did a sneaky mid-week weigh in and was SO pleased to have lost 3lbs in 3 days! And today, the scales are exactly the same as then. However, whilst part of me is a tad bit disappointed, I must tell myself two things:

  • 3lbs is still great and in fact more than the 1-2lbs suggested. I think the weight’s currently coming off quicker as I have so much to lose. So, be kind to yourself, Erika!
  • I’m experiencing water retention with my period now due. And girls, this is where it’s important that we try to not let ourselves be affected by our monthly cycles. Try to fight any cravings, keep an eye on those calories and still do some exercise because once that water retention goes, those pounds are going to fall away!

Setting my June target

Rather than set a weight loss target (I know I’m focused on the pounds dropping anyway), my target is to drink water and unsweetened black tea every day. I drink way too much Diet Coke – I almost live on it – but let’s see if I can improve what I choose to drink for the whole month.

Love Erika xx

Total weight lost:Still to lose:Current weight: BMI:
33 lbs117 lbs275 lbs41.8

When I lose weight, I will……

Mmm, what would you say if you’re on a weight loss journey? What does your weight or size currently stop you from doing? I think that starting to think about these things is helpful as it acts likes a carrot for me. Yes, the weight is coming down and, yes, the body measurements are getting smaller but when there’s still so much weight to lose (132lbs), visualising the ‘new me’ keeps me positive and focused.

So, here’s my list of targets and milestones that I can hopefully tick off on this ‘new me’ journey:

  • be able to put my feet together when I stand up (currently there’s a 1.5″ gap due to my large legs)
  • get into a dress that I wore on a cruise 2 years ago (UK size 22) – I’m almost there
  • wear ankle boots that don’t cut into my large calves
  • be able to wear 3/4 trousers once my legs are slimmer
  • be able to kneel down without experiencing excruciating pain in my legs
  • wear Wellington boots (haven’t worn for years)
  • be able to run 5K, first alone but then at a park run
  • be able to run a half marathon of 13.1 miles
  • get back into my 10 year old jeans (UK size 14)
  • not even think about whether I can comfortably fit in a chair with arms including at the cinema and on a plane
  • be able to resume smear tests (pap tests) without utter embarrassment (I currently privately pay for a test I administer myself at home and then send off)
  • ditch the maxi skirts that I wear every single day!
  • ride a horse (local riding school quotes 196lb maximum weight)
  • have a helicopter flying lesson (231lb maximum weight)
  • be able to go on a hot air balloon (roughly 252lb maximum weight)
  • go down Zip Wire Velocity 2 in North Wales which is over 1,500 metres long and involves going over 100 miles an hour (264lb maximum weight).

Wow! Reading through this list (which obviously isn’t in order of likelihood of being achieved), there really are some seriously big goals but smaller ones too. No doubt, this list will get added to over time and I can celebrate the small and large successes with you!

I’d love to hear about your goals and aspirations… or what you finally did after losing weight

Love Erika xx

Week 3 weigh-in: I was brave!

Well, it’s Monday and that means it’s time to share with you the results of standing on the scales this morning: I’ve lost 5lbs this week! Yay! Now that I’m 290lbs, I’m just 3lbs away from my previously known heaviest weight of 287lbs and I guess I feel as if I’m heading back into familiar territory, if that makes sense. There’s something wonderfully comforting about that.

But my even bigger news to tell you is that I got on the scales ON MY OWN! As you know, I’ve been hauling a chair onto the scales with me as I’d been too scared to see my ‘real weight’ and, suspecting the chair was about 28lbs, it gave me a rough idea of how much I actually weighed. However, on Saturday night, I was almost tying myself in knots researching the chair online, desperate to find a website that would give me its exact weight. I mean, what if the chair weighed 21lbs and therefore I was 7lbs heavier than I thought I was? It was like I couldn’t switch off and so, recognising that I needed to stop the obsessive thoughts, I knew I had to be brave, get on the scales alone and ‘just’ deal with it. So, I got on to find that the chair really is 28lbs! Yes, it was a relief that I’d estimated the chair correctly but you know, it was more of a relief that I could now deal with my new lifestyle in a less complicated way.

Hopefully I can lose 3lbs soon and reach that first big goal but I’ve also been thinking about the activities I’d love to do that have a weight limit, such as going on a zip wire or having a helicopter flying lesson. Just knowing that I CAN do these activities will be amazing but more about that next time!

Have a good week, everyone

Love Erika xx

Total weight lost:Still to lose:Current weight: BMI:
33 lbs117 lbs275 lbs41.8

Losing weight during lockdown

I don’t know whether anyone can relate but being on lockdown is actually helping me to lose weight, get fit and basically start investing in myself. Life can be really busy and whilst I’m certainly missing the income from not being able to work (I’m self-employed), it’s actually given me an opportunity to create some good habits that I’m determined will continue once I’m back working. To be honest with you, I should have taken stock of my health a long time ago but, whilst I knew I was big, it’s only recently that I’ve started to see the true extent of my size.

The COVID-19 stats show that people who are obese, morbidly obese or even overweight are at greater risk of complications and death if they catch the virus and I have to say that this fact alone has spurred me on. I know my morbidly obese BMI has already reduced having lost 13 lbs in the past 3 weeks and, having introduced a daily fitness routine in this short time, I’m hoping to be under than 40 mark reasonably soon. Of course, my eventual aim is to get my BMI in the ‘normal’ range. But it does scare me about what would happen if I caught the virus, not that I have any underlying health difficulties.

The other motivation is that I’d love my weight loss to be recognisable when I see people again. I’m not usually someone who seeks attention (far from it!) but it’d be great if I move down clothes size-wise and find myself holding myself differently when I see family and friends. Wow….I’d love just one person (beyond hubby) to notice! I love TV shows where people go away for a makeover and then come back for the big reveal! And I guess this is my own makeover opportunity.

My daily exercise regime is giving me routine in my day and, as we’re food shopping as infrequently as possible, food needs to be planned carefully. Hubby and I have said that we’ll continue with the pattern of food shopping post-lockdown but I’m going to build in my exercise around my work. even if I work slightly fewer hours. The other good thing that’s helping is stopping myself from eating after 8pm and this has instantly cut out the almost mindless snacking where food goes in without me realising it.

I’d also love to share 2 others things with you today:

  • First, I managed to jog on the spot for 1 minute (broken down into 4 x 15 seconds). Oh, I know this doesn’t sound long but I’ve heard that very large people can have heart problems if they suddenly start to jog. So, I want to build it up slowly, especially as I haven’t jogged since, er, back at school?!!
  • Second, as you may know from my blog, I’m scared to stand on my scales without hauling a 28 lb chair with me! Yes, I don’t want to see my chairless weight quite yet but when the scales say that me AND the chair weigh 300 lbs, I’m going to go for it! It should mean that my body alone will be around the 272lbs so, even if my calculation of the chair isn’t 100% spot on, I will certainly be under the 280 mark.

Have a great weekend everyone and I’ll let you know how Monday’s weigh-in goes

Love Erika xx

Week 2 weigh-in: Two milestones met already

With my second weigh-in this morning, I really hoped that I’d lose a good amount. Of course, it’s important to lose weight at a sensible rate but I’ve also read that the more you have to lose in the first place, the quicker it can come off when starting the new lifestyle journey…..and the scales did not disappoint! 6lbs lost! I’m certain that this figure will slow down to perhaps 1 or 2 lbs a week but I hope it’s okay to say that, in the meantime, I’m really chuffed. However, as well as the weight loss, it also means that I’ve now reached two milestones. First, it means that I’m now under 300 lbs. Part of me is SO happy yet another part is thinking how on earth did I get to 300lbs over the past few years. I do feel ashamed but dwelling on it isn’t going to help. But the main thing is that I’m now making myself home in the 200 club which I hope will be a welcoming place to be as I pass by before moving onto the 100 club at some point. The other milestone is that my BMI is now 44.9 so I’ve got under the 45 mark

The other thing I did this morning was to take my official ‘before’ photos from the front and side. They’re not great viewing and they won’t show my weight loss so far (including some weight loss before I was brave to weigh myself a fortnight ago) but perhaps I can be brave and share these with you some time. I’m a bit nervous about that to be honest. Perhaps it’s about being judged and revealing my body when I go to lengths to hide it usually so I hope you’ll be kind! Hopefully when I get back into those skinny jeans and leather knee high boots that I last wore in 2012, I can look back at the photos to see how far I came.

I’m still doing my 40 minutes of walking each day around my living room and I’ve started to increase the number of repetitions when doing my upper body exercises. You know, it was only a few months ago when I remember my back hurting from just standing up to do the washing up so my fitness is getting there. How I’d love to run a 5K one day! Never say never! Long term goals are just as important as the short term ones.

Finally, I’ve decided that I will start to weigh myself without the huge chair that I hold above my head as I get onto the scales! From what I’ve read online, I think the chair weighs 28lbs so, once the scales suggest that me and me alone may actually be under 20 stone, perhaps that’s the time to ditch the chair and get on ‘naked’!!!

If you’re on your own journey, please feel free to share your successes and challenges here

Stay safe everyone

Love Erika xx

Total weight lost:Still to lose:Current weight including the chair!
13 lbs137 lbs323 lbs

Adele’s weight loss – inspirational!

Hey

When I read a news article today about Adele thanking key workers here in the UK, I had to look twice! Her 7 stone weight loss makes her look unrecognisable and I had to read it twice to make sure that I was thinking of the same singer! But, as somebody with a LOT of weight to lose, looking at people’s before and after photos really inspires me to see how things could be if I stick to this new lifestyle of being kind to myself, sticking to 3 meals a day and some exercises right here in my living room. I’m unlikely to be someone who’s going to be eating 5 portions of fruit and veg. I’m really not very adventurous when it comes to trying new food but if I at least aim for 2 portions a day, that’s a massive improvement from before. And this is how I’m approaching this journey. Small, realistic changes that I can sustain going forward.

Whilst Monday morning is my weekly day to weigh in, I’m measuring myself every 6 weeks (bust, waist, belly, hips and calf) and tomorrow is my next measuring day. But it’s a bit nerve-wracking. What if I haven’t lose any inches? What if the feeling of my body getting a tiny bit smaller is completely in my head? Aagghh!! It’s the same before jumping on the scales and desperately hoping that the numbers have shifted. Even, if it’s a 1/4 of an inch lost anywhere compared to 6 weeks ago, at least it’s heading in the right direction!

In my next post, I’ll share with you what’s lead my new positive approach to me looking after me…. finally!

If you’re on a weight loss journey, do you take measurements? I’d love to know if you do and whether you find it helpful. Feel free to celebrate your successes here!

Love Erika xx

Week 1 weigh-in: moving my body helped!

Hey guys

So. before I tell you how much weight I’ve lost in my first week since weighing myself, I thought I’d tell you about exercise. No, I’m not about to tell you that I’ve been doing yoga, going for a 5K run or cycling for an hour everyday. if only I could do those things! Before starting to control what I eat, I would get puffed out just walking up the stairs. I’d circle the car park to get the nearest parking space to the store. I’d avoid sitting on the floor as there’s no way I could get up again without a real struggle.

As I mentioned the other day, I’ve started to control my food intake since 14 February (and I’ll share with you soon about what led to this) and, in this time, I’ve lost 5 inches from my hips and 3 inches from my waist purely by cutting out any snacks between meals. Back in February, I was far too scared to jump on the scales so I grabbed the tape measure instead. However, after me and the chair got on the scales a week ago (which revealed a TERRIFYING figure even taking into account the weight of the chair), I felt that I needed to start moving my body so, for the past 7 days, I’ve walked for 40 minutes……around my living room! Now, this hasn’t been 40 minutes in one go. Goodness, no! It’s been broken down into 4 lots of 10 minutes and I think breaking it down has helped, especially with the TV or radio on as helpful distraction. And, since Wednesday, I’ve also been doing exercises to work on my upper body whilst sitting down made up of:

1. stretching my arms out and doing small circles forwards and backwards 20 times in each direction (repeated later in the day)

2. 60 air punches with each arm towards a clock sitting on my mantlepiece (repeated later in the day)

3. starting with a prayer poise, raising my arms slowly up as far as possible and very slowly bringing my arms down to the side making a huge circle very slowly and back into a prayer poise 10 times (and again repeated in the day).

The key thing is that I’ve started to move my body. It’s not been easy to find the motivation to start this, especially when the sofa is my favourite place in the house! But, since weighing myself a week ago, I’ve lost……..7 lbs. I can’t tell you how chuffed I am! I know not every week is going to be like this and there may be weeks where I think “What’s the point?” but I need to think of the much longer goal rather than let the number on the scales dictate my mood and how I feel about myself. Nothing has felt better than ticking off each exercise activity on my to-do list and feeling as I’m doing something positive about myself.

I’ve only just started this blog but I’m SO grateful to the people following me already. Welcome! My plan is to blog 2-3 times a week with weekly weigh ins, updates on the inches lost, more information about me and my weight battle and so much more…..

Love Erika xx

Total weight lost:Still to lose:Current weight including the chair!
7 lbs143 lbs 329 lbs

Time to confess my starting weight…

…in a moment! Yes, I am openly procrastinating typing the weight that showed up on the scales a week ago. If you read my first post, you’ll see that I actually got on the scales holding a huge chair to artificially inflate the reading and to make it all a little bit less real! That might sound jolly weird but my mind is a strange place, you know! But, knowing roughly what the chair weighs, I’ve got a good idea what my weight is.

With this being just my second post, I thought I’d share the topic of some upcoming posts so that you can keep an eye out if they might be of interest:

  • making the decision to lose weight
  • starting to exercise when you’re puffed out just walking up a flight of stairs
  • avoiding getting trapped by a history of bulimia and anorexia
  • looking at whether my life hold clues about why I’ve never had a good relationship with food
  • overcoming the weight loss speed bumps
  • looking to the future with things I’d like to do when fit

…and much more. As I said before, I’ll be really open with you as I’m not pretending that this is going to be a walk in the park. There are going to be sticking points, I’m sure, but hopefully I’ll learn lots about myself in how I tackle the challenging times.

Okay folks. Time to give a figure……..me AND the chair together showed up as 336lbs (which is roughly 152kg). And breathe, Erika! There it is. I’ve told you. At some point, I’m sure I’ll be brave enough to jump on the scales all alone but, for now, however I do the weighing thing, at least I’ve got the ball rolling and that figure is only going to go down!

Have a good weekend

Love Erika xx

I need to lose 150lbs

The first post on a new blog is rather scary! There’s so much I want to tell you but we’ve got lots of time to get to know each other, haven’t we! I mean, losing 150lbs (about 10 stone) isn’t going to be a goal that I can accomplish in the next month so I’m going to be blogging for quite some time.

First, I need to confess something – I THINK it’s 150lbs I need to lose. I was too scared to get on the scales on my own so I lifted a very large angel high-backed chair with me so that I could glance at the scales and think “Well, at least I’m not X amount”. I’d love to know if I’m only one who gets on scales with furniture, pets or children! I’ve been Googling the weight of the chair and it’s coming up 28lbs (over 12.5 kg) so I think I have an idea about my true weight but I need to shift some more weight more before I get on ‘naked’, without anything clinging to me or held above my head!

I must tell you that I have a history of bulimia and anorexia and so it’s vitally important that I do this in a really healthy way, a more sustainable way than in the past. 9 years ago, I was very ill with anorexia and put my heart at risk. I was obsessing about minimal calories over 6 months and was almost sectioned under the UK Mental Health Act due its physical toll. But more on that another time.

The last thing to share right now is that I started this journey on 14 February (absolutely no link to being Valentine’s Day). I wanted to make sure that I was beginning this journey healthily before blogging and I wanted to see if I could sustain healthy eating for more than 3 weeks (usually the point in a diet when I reach for the candy and biscuits!). But, with 2.5 months gone, I think I’m now ready do share my 150lbs weight loss with you which will be on top of however much weight I’ve already lost.

And I promise to be open, very open with you. I’ll tell you about some exercise I’m starting and what I’m eating. And, in my next blog, I’ll tell you what the scales said!

Love Erika xx