Week 34 weigh-in: questions to ask yourself if you have a few ‘bad’ days

Hey guys

Well, this is just the 2nd time since starting to blog when I’ve had a week that hasn’t been great food-wise. However, I guess the focus of today’s blog is to hopefully give hope that just because we have a week like this, it doesn’t mean that we can’t refocus and get back on our journey. So, instead of my usual Monday report card, I’ll talk you through how my mind’s working today.

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What happened this week?

Three things. First, I injured myself doing jumping jacks so I’ve had to keep my feet up (not an excuse to eat more though!). Second, I just relaxed too much. Getting into the 210s after starting out at 329 felt like a huge achievement and I almost had the sense of reaching the end of a long, arduous race but no! I’m still 59 lbs away from my goal. Third, I ate more carbs than normal…which seemed to make me crave them even more.

But…I’ve still stayed away from chocolate, cookies and sweets….and I can still do up the button on my jeans.

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How has this left you feeling?

I’m mainly disappointed with myself and I guess kinda embarrassed too. I knew I’d be blogging today and I couldn’t bring myself to get on the scales this morning. I’ve always promised to be honest with you because I want my weight loss account to be real, whatever happens. However, with my usual positive outlook on things, I guess I’m feeling determined to turn this around for myself and I’m hoping that this helps at least one other person out there.

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What are the reasons to get back on track?

Because I’ve come SO SO far! 112 lbs lost including 21 lbs prior to blogging. And I’m just 18 lbs away from being under the 200 mark and just 21 lbs from no longer being obese. Plus I’ve been buying a new wardrobe with clothes that I can’t wait to wear. Erika in shorts by summer 2021? Oh yes!!!!

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So, where do you go from here?

Today, I’ll visualise those scales showing 199 lbs and how that’s going to leave me feeling.

Today, I’ll question whether I want that slice of bread or want to see 199 lbs.

Today, I’ll exercise as much as I can and I’ll focus on what I can do…and not what I can’t.

Today, I’ll accept that further weight loss isn’t going to happen unless I make a change and step it up again.

And tomorrow, I’ll get back on the scales and face whatever the figure shows.

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So, I’ll be back on Christmas Eve / Christmas Day but, as ever, please feel free to share your own successes, your own frustrations or whatever’s on your mind in the comments. And to everyone who follows me, thank you! Truly. I don’t feel like I’m alone on this journey and it really means so much.

Love Erika xx

Recordable weight loss since blogging:Still to lose:Current weight:BMI:
91 lbs59 lbs217 lbs33
Plus 21 lbs lost prior to blogging

Lockdown and weight…I’ve won!

If you’d told me on New Year’s Day that we’d be under lockdown and asked what that would happen to my weight, I would have told you that it would pile on. With my business on hold, none of the usual volunteering sessions to do and none of my travels happening, I’m sure that the weight would have crept on whilst reaching out for yet another biscuit! Back in January, I knew I was big but, feeling disconnected to my body, I didn’t know how big I truly was.

February

And then something clicked in my mind in February when I knew I had to cut out the snacks and restrict my intake. And so healthy eating was happening and I estimate that I probably lost about 20lbs judging by the inch loss. But for me, diets then stop after 3 weeks. I get bored! I yearn for a toffee-cream Éclair!

Lockdown comes

However, by that 3 week point, we were very much seeing COVID-19 cases increase and then boom. Lockdown! Suddenly, we had to plan our meals. We couldn’t walk into shops as easily. I had so much time on my hands that could have lead to boredom and eating. But in fact hearing about the high percentage of overweight and obese people succumbing to the virus made me see that I could use this time to focus on me. What a precious gift that is! And so I started to blog, I started to create a daily workout, I finally got on the scales without hauling that huge chair with me and my weight is going down! Lockdown 0 – Me 1!

I’m back to work on Tuesday and part of me is a bit concerned about will I be able to maintain this journey? Well, yes! Okay, so my leg is injured AT THE MOMENT and I’m on crutches AT THE MOMENT but I’m still working out and watching everything I eat. So, if I want weight loss badly enough, I will make it work. I have had so many hits on this blog by people in the US (hello!) and I’ve been watching lots of US weight loss programmes like Fit to Fat to Fit and My 3000lb Family. These have been invaluable to watch…as I exercise of course!

A final note

And, yes, Monday is my next weigh-in. A note here for you girls because it’s almost the time of the month and perhaps I’ll gain a few pounds temporarily but I can still be good, still look after me and then see the weight loss afterwards. But bearing in mind that my periods have only just come back due to my weight loss (yes, I was so heavy that they stopped for 10 years), that’s a small price to pay for better health!

Have a great weekend everyone and I’ll be back on Monday

Love Erika xx

Time to confess my starting weight…

…in a moment! Yes, I am openly procrastinating typing the weight that showed up on the scales a week ago. If you read my first post, you’ll see that I actually got on the scales holding a huge chair to artificially inflate the reading and to make it all a little bit less real! That might sound jolly weird but my mind is a strange place, you know! But, knowing roughly what the chair weighs, I’ve got a good idea what my weight is.

With this being just my second post, I thought I’d share the topic of some upcoming posts so that you can keep an eye out if they might be of interest:

  • making the decision to lose weight
  • starting to exercise when you’re puffed out just walking up a flight of stairs
  • avoiding getting trapped by a history of bulimia and anorexia
  • looking at whether my life hold clues about why I’ve never had a good relationship with food
  • overcoming the weight loss speed bumps
  • looking to the future with things I’d like to do when fit

…and much more. As I said before, I’ll be really open with you as I’m not pretending that this is going to be a walk in the park. There are going to be sticking points, I’m sure, but hopefully I’ll learn lots about myself in how I tackle the challenging times.

Okay folks. Time to give a figure……..me AND the chair together showed up as 336lbs (which is roughly 152kg). And breathe, Erika! There it is. I’ve told you. At some point, I’m sure I’ll be brave enough to jump on the scales all alone but, for now, however I do the weighing thing, at least I’ve got the ball rolling and that figure is only going to go down!

Have a good weekend

Love Erika xx